Jess Ong

2011-08-13T13:27:00.001+08:00

Its over already so please please please leave me alone, I really had enough of all this conversation and meet up its really up to my neck and I can't take it any more. Its not I don't want to contact you, its not I don't want to meet you but how can I? How can I treat you as a friend when you don't? Do you think that if I want to leave you I cannot? So please stop it, from today onward I don't want to accept any more nonsense and also is not I wanted to hurt you but you leave me with no choice.

2011-07-08T20:29:00.001+08:00

Always tot tat life should be tis way but now I'm told another way which make me really confuse. All I wanna b is to be the most law by law person but yet situation tell me tat life is nt like tis and I need to fight for stuff tat suppose to belong to me but yet again I dunno wat to do cause kindness had ask me to go wif the 'just listen and do since I dun mind' but others just tell tat I should fight to get sth gd. 

I always tot tat not fighting and just obeying is what to do but it isn't so cause I still need to have my right but how can I fight when I'm nt like tat. I'm really confuse if I should be or not but wat can I do? Change? If change how? I dun even have the direction and guide? I'm nt brave nor smart. Really nt but I just dun wan to admin tat I'm nt tat gd as wat ppl say and think :(

How can I find the answer I wan? Nobody noes ba :(

2011-07-05T22:24:00.002+08:00

wow, so so sian so tired but so wasted:( felt like i wasted my stay out course time cause have been home so regularly but i love it at home too.

tis two days have been bad cause headache hurting down me and i've been so tired too. feel so slepy even when i'm on the road but still i focus on the road all the time.

i need a life pls:(

2011-07-04T06:45:00.002+08:00

Hi bloggie:) Long time no see:) anw i just wanna say gd morning and have a gd day everyone:)

Woke up earlier today cause was quite hot and couldn't feel the fan so decided to wake up and do some useful stuff but i just hope I won't feel so tired later on during driving as it's really very stressing every time I take over the wheels:(

Good luck to me them:) Gd day:)

2010-10-23T02:14:00.003+08:00

Have left with 1 hour before the promise sleep time…

It’s been long since I last blog but time is just running and I can’t afford to stop and put down my thoughts here. Tonight I decided to change the look of my blog again and type 1 post because this is something that I wanted to complete.

There seems to have lots of ups and downs at this period of time but I feel so different even thou I feel tired but still after all it is something that I will be willing to do it. I guess I’ve change, I wonder if it’s better but I know that I’m still in the process of adapting to the changes make.

Why is decision forever so difficult to be made? Why am I always so indecisive, especially in the important things that affect not only me? Something I really hate the ‘me’ that screw everything up when I can actually make it better. But that’s not the point so I guess I should not say so much about it.

Last 2 weekend before I’m flying off to US for 3 weeks on 6^th Nov 2010. Time is really running out but I guess when I come back from US I will still be able to do it. I pray hard that things will not change that much after the 3 week especially everybody safety.

Tomorrow I’ll be seeing Perly in the morning, hopeful the whole process won’t take too long so I have time to prepare whatever I need for this wonderful weekend that I going to spend with my dear. Planning a couple trip and going on a special event (night safari – Halloween), the night will be great and I believe is not the hours together that counts.

I know I’ve hurt you really a lot for the past few weeks and I really want to apologize for saying words that I never think before saying out during an unhappy moment. You had been so good to me that I really don’t know what I can do to repaid you (I know this is not something that should be repaid but still I feel so love till I’m guilty). It’s going 4 month for us and I hope this past month had been fruitful for both of us to understanding the shortcomings and the characteristics of each other. Thanks for enduring the willful, nasty and stubborn side of me. I look forward for a wonderful 30^th to 31^st and till than I wish we will be lovely just the way we are : )

2010-08-29T13:29:00.010+08:00

Yo yo, here to update again… this week was not that great because I fall sick on Monday, just before land navigation I got high fever of 39.1… break my own record of going to see MO myself… it felt terrible so I push myself to see MO and get medication but luckily I’m able to plead for a attend B and I’m still able to join the land navigation on Tuesday… although during the exercise it feel sucky but I’m happy that my detail completed and are one of the team that finish the earliest : )

After the exercise the whole week is quite slack and we have two nights out in a row… I meet my darlings for a dinner and went home for dinner on the second nights out : ) I guess I really miss out lot on friends and family when I’m in army and I really feel sad abt not having them like how I use to have : ( but what to do when every day we have just 24hours??

Starting of weekends were not so great till I met you cause there are some conflicting issues before that, but whats over is over and so we had great dinner supper and chatting : ) took quite a lot of photos too which is rare but I love the photos and we should continue the habit : )

2010-08-21T06:18:00.001+08:00

Finally after so long I decided to start update again but I guess this is not gg to last long as life as a solider is actually super busy especially when you are on course.

2 more weeks and I will be going to artillery unit and I’m really excited to start the course there even though everybody that heard about my unit will give a ‘slack’ expression. I would love to engage in my specify weapon and of course to leave hell that was given during foundation term not by the training but otherwise.

Now I feel that I’m really lucky to have you going through happiness and unhappiness and I do hope that things will not change much even if we are not at the same training ground anymore. You are a capable person because I believe what my senses tell me. We will both work things out to the best of our ability no matter where we go

Private time now is really as little as you can’t imagine, I miss schooling life no matter if its secondary or poly. I have tight training and schedule too but at least once in a while I have a period of free time for myself. Maybe I’m still not able to adapt to working life and I hope I will learn to ration my time soon.

Last but not least I wanna say I miss ALPS and AR, all my adventure stuff seems to be getting hidden and not to be found soon. I want to conquer more mountains, experience more races and gain more skills and knowledge but for now I believe all this are hard to achieve. So I shall use what I always say now, we’ll see we’ll see.

2010-04-19T22:04:00.001+08:00

Okay finally decided to update sth more especially about the last weekend and today.

Friday nite:

Slept at 1am plus with a feeling that tml I have nth on and even if I have things on it would not be a race as the FEEL is not there at all. It’s really weird as this is my starting race after so many months but I just don’t have the feel for the race. Maybe because this race is more of amazing then adventure like what they mention during the briefing ba…

Saturday:

Early morning 6am plus started walking toward kai house with very quiet surrounding and music playing from the mp3, this kind of feeling is very good as those music are just so nice and making me wanted to sing aloud (but of course I didn’t). I guess the only bad thing that I don’t like was the little sore throat that I had since yest nite and it’s all because of Wei Qiang : )

Was so happy to see the AR people and get to race with them again as I now really feel that I have little bonding… and something that upset me is that ALSON QUA actually say that I become fairer when he first saw me, didn’t I just go tanning? OMG what happen to my tanning: (

Start the race but I lazy to type what happen so maybe I will type more in camp ba……

After that went over to Stan house to eat and chat it’s really wonderful to see the AR people and laugh out loud. I hope next stage of Stan life will be good and I believe it will be : ) next week will be more ba : )

Monday:

Today is really bad and bad and bad all the little bad things that since to be so little but is so bad to me and yet I get not encouragement or maybe encouragement in a bad way : (

First thing in the morning I woke up with a little heavy head then I got to carry a big bag with full protection gear inside to take bus.

When in camp and prepare to change but realize that my singlet is not in my cupboard and so I have to change back to No 4 and rush down to track for 1^st parade with all the staring again.

Next was swimming without running and with all the ache and some unknown knee pain.

After swim follow by the ‘how to fold also cannot fold well uniform shelve’ and the walk a bit then had a burst blister boots.

After all settle went back to office and head is still heavy and feeling very tired but in office everything was well except that the person beside doesn’t seem very happy and my senses are feeling the blister pain : (

Lastly was of course the rain the make me drench from 5plus to 6plus (when I reach home)

So I would say what a day with my uniform, hope everything will be better each day till BMT : (

2010-04-08T14:55:00.001+08:00

My life is going through a major change currently and I'm still getting use to it but I do hope this career will not just be like this and I believe I'm at the right track where I make the right decision 3 years ago. Just had some random thoughts when I'm in camp sitting in the office and staring at the cellings for hours and hours.

BUT this kind of life will end soon as I'm super HAPPY to recieve the news that my BMT could be brought forward by four month. I guess that is really a good news for me but of course certein things will have to be compromise when things happen so sudden.

Life have been good and bad bad bad... I'm good cause I have darling and family and its bad bad is because its bad which I dun wish to mention here about how disappointed I'm wif you and maybe you.

So lazy to continue typing so I'm going off and hopefully more photos will be uploaded ba : )

2010-03-28T16:55:00.001+08:00

Wow, just nice when I was thinking of blogging and really am starting to blog it was exactly 1 month from my last post…

Lives for the past 3 month are both wonderful and not so wonderful… shall not talk so much about my career as I guess it was quite a secret place although what I doing inside is nothing much of a secret…

Luckily my life is still filled with colour with my family and friends… every book out I can say I’m well accompany by (esp) darling… first two week was all spend with my darling an d its all good experience and fulfilling quite a number of things we wanted to do…

Of course not forgetting my buffet and majong weekend with family which make the babes goes crazy and abnormal behavior… but of course the spending is not a joke…haha

Okay then I shall end off here without all the naggy long essay… shall try to upload photo next time provided I’m not lazy…haha

I shall go prepare for the long awaiting 2 person BBQ at Fang house area… I believe it will be another good Sunday and filling day…haha

2010-02-28T03:53:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was really hard but I guess it was all because of me as after a whole day of sitting down in front of my laptop but still I have to rush my report. It was really, nerver mind I guess I shouldn’t talk too much here as blog is not a good place to spilt everything out.

Today had quite a good day as firstly I started watching ‘Gong Xin Ji’ the Hong Kong drama that mum recommended till 5am plus.

Went out with James today for a movie name ‘Hot Summer Days’ and a dinner at Hereen downstairs Japanese canteen, and I guess all this comes because of caramel waffle biscuit. Nice day out I would say cause good accompany with good entertainment and food plus place.

Currently still watching the HK drama but after this I will go sleep as tomorrow will be the last day of CNY and what I can say is good luck and jia you.

Good night Jess and all : )

2010-02-26T12:10:00.004+08:00

Met up with Naren and Huixian yesterday night and I think it was a happy session as they both will not fail to make me laugh and Naren never fail to bully me. But of course I have my protector Huixian there, is weird as I’m always the protector of others. : )

Today is the last day for IIP report so I have to rush it out like soon, please give me the strength to chiong finish and I can be free. Shall go and 加油加油加油加油 first then maybe blog more : (

Dun understand if it is me 不自量力 or 为何喜欢我的人都很专一. What capability I have to do it? I also don’t know, but I only wish that I can maintain and stop the evil move. Please stay strong with me even though I know you are not.

2010-02-25T02:12:00.002+08:00

Reach home after a dinner with whole family at Holiday Inn, had some unpleasant moment but I guess overall was still great. I guess they wouldn’t want to be spoilt so badly after doing some compensation so I’m not mentioning what had happen.

Legs were aching after some shopping but I kept quiet because of ‘I don’t know’ and I seriously don’t know why, maybe it’s just some forms of acting strong but. Was looking feminine today but after a full meal it seems to be uncomfortable rather than pretty but I know this has to go on.

Saw on the Youth Olympic variety show just now on Ch U, it was about TKD and it make me misses TKD even more. I remember when I was still in colour belt it feels good to go down at least once a week to train and after 1 month plus will be grading. Before and during grading I will surely be scare to death and after grading I will sure emo on bus and thinks that I’m going to fail but every time I also passed. Now looking back I really miss that time and I really hope I can learn from the beginning again as I have forgotten a lot a lot.

Just now went to look at RP mail and saw the tag team climbing competition that I wanted to join but no partners so I guess maybe I will just go down and see ba. Haiz looking back in RP I really have very little friends that I’m close to but what to do, I’m already half a body out of the school and so this is it lor. I’m still hoping to find a partner that I’m happy to be with but I guess its hard cause I always request a lot which I don’t even knows.

Finally started on my report but it dies after awhile so I guess I need to buck up, what to do? LL and do it lor. : (

Lastly about today is about the AR gang going overseas, I will really miss them esp a few like my dear and etc. I really hope I can be one of them but I guess I can’t and it’s sure a pity to be not because it’s not here and there and it will never be. I wish them all the best in the race and more importantly is be careful not to get any injuries and do enjoy and take lots of photos when you all are out there. Will be so jealous of the photos when you all upload it – Loves Jess : )

2010-02-25T01:53:00.003+08:00

I have been trying hard to be who I’m but I’m always hungry for who I wanted to be. It’s always like this and I wonder if ever it can be control. I’m too weak for this but yet I’m craving for it. I know I need and I know I can but in fact it might be cannot because of defeat. I ‘m not who you know but who you don’t know. I’m not someone in actual but someone in disguise. I’m smart and I’m a fool. What I really am is what I really don’t know.

(just some random thoughts)

2010-02-23T16:26:00.000+08:00

Yest played majong when I woke up and before I went to bed, more than half the day was spend playing. OMG I feel so sinful and don’t really like this feeling as I just spend more than half of my useful time on majong. Or maybe it is the people that I’m playing with? When playing with SKPS people I don’t really feel wasted but is it really people or the time spend, blur again.

Can’t really figure out my feelings now a day, does getting nearer to 21st make me think more or do I really know myself in the beginning? Was chatting with Daniel yest night in Chinese words (weird), I guess is always good to have such a nice friend and I’m always lucky to find some supporting person like him. But friends comes and goes especially guys (for some you know why reason). Haiz

In the morning woke up at 11am (one day without running again) when the SingTel guy called and said that he is coming. He said he was at Hougang and I thought he won’t reach so fast so was still reading sms on bed. Get out of bed and went to wash up and here he came when I just started. Quickly rush everything and went out to ask him question and see what he is doing.

He fix in the new modem and etc, after around 40min and he is done, serve a drink and off he goes. I really hope this technician will solve our problem with the irritating wireless that keeps DC-ing us from the net.

Currently uploading CNY photos to FB, blogging and surfing the net for information (wow multi-tasking). CNY photos were great with Da Jie and Er Jie camera and with their help I look pretty with my face make up (I guess) although I hate getting scolded and wasting their time but still they helped so million thanks to them (beloved sisters).

IIP report to be handed up in less than four days and I haven even started, so dead but so lazy. I guess it’s time to buck up and like what uncle Dan said, pia for the last phrases of RP : )

Need to do lots of things so I shall end off first… see ya @_@

2010-02-22T03:09:00.000+08:00

Another day has past with lots of preparing and cards game.

From morning around 0900hrs plus I woke up and start packing and cleaning up the house to preparing and cooking the food till 1200hrs plus where people suppose to start coming my house but nope.

So the first part of the game started internal for my family and the kids from next door and continues till 1400hrs plus then people start coming and more people joining in the game.

It was till 1800plus when my first and only friends out of many that I invited came. But sadly I cause him to lose money too. But I guess he had fun with my mum and sister without me.

Everyone left my house at around 2300hrs plus to go home and be in time to pray to the ‘Tian’. And yes after all left what we need to do is another tiring task. Clearing up was not tough because there are da jie and mum around too. Very quickly here I came online.

Currently watching the last episode of Xia Yi Zhan Xin Fu, its ending soon and yes one more show down which I’m so excited for the ending which I think it will be another happy ending.

So weird sitting beside da jie at such a late night, usually she will use com in her room and now beside me. But I guess after the show I will fall asleep soon le.

Oh ya tml kbox cancel, quite of sad as I’ve always like to sing but I guess after Taiwan lots of things have change so… maybe movie with sister? I don’t know and don’t think so ba. Should do my IIP report soon I guess cause the date due is this Friday. Jia you then :)

2010-02-21T01:09:00.001+08:00

Today was quite a busy day for me, I felt good that I’m not slacking at home and don’t know what I should do.

Today work up at 10 plus to start preparing woke up in total blank of what I should wear as there are both house visit and 21st birthday to go. After a while finally decided and all the preparation still exceed my predicted time and again I was late. But this time the people I meet (Fang. Zhen. Joan and friends) were later.

Meet Joan and was led blurly to her house as she says right and turn left?? Went her house and help in cooking and after eating went off to meet GH and JS at pasir ris before going to the chalet.

Help up in quite a lot of stuff and met quite a few friends that I know last time, from my friend boyfriends, NPCC area 7 CI to national Alpha campus. Quite nice to see them but too bad my memory is bad and so I only can remember faces.

Some parts was quite boring as nothing much to do other then eat and yes I’m happy that fang didn’t come if not she will be sabo big time because of the nice nice video that JS, Sandy and GH make. But sad that she is not here to pei me cause when I’m bored I don’t have here.

Today also finally see some of ZP gal and and nel GF, pretty cool as they are the ones that are always mention but never see in person before.

Everything ended quite good and thanks GH for sending me home again. Just that meidan was not here if not we will be in 7s and it is like 7s in 5years ago place and current location.

Okay I’m freaking tired and falling asleep infront of the com soon and so I better get some rest before waking up to prepare for later on visiting to my house. Good night and Happy Birthday to ZP!!!

2010-02-20T03:37:00.001+08:00

It’s been awhile since I properly manage this blog.

In Taiwan life had been very tiring and there is like too much things to do (including personal stuff) that make me don’t feel like updating at all.

Now that I’m back to Singapore I think the same excesses will continue but I really hope I can put in the effort. But for me effort seems to always be the problem, it is always too much or too little issues. Time to review and reflect about myself I guess. Also I should think properly about what I want in the future or even what I want now?

This year is the year of 21 for me and a lot of my friends. Seeing some of them having parties and BBQ making me think about mine 21st, where, what? Why? Who? How? Curious, but I know it should be round my BMT time :(

Recently just went for my suppose to be first day of army, but it ended up to be a fake notice which is cause by some communication problem. But it’s okay because at least I still did something useful other than wasting my time there waiting. I went for my interview and I got to know which path I will be taking (although I still don’t quite get what the path is like).

Today was quite a wasteful day for me as I was typically just slacking around the house. I kind of hate this as I did nothing useful and make me such a useless person. But the day has past so let’s not think about it.

Tomorrow /later on will be going to meet my darlings to go to Joan house, I guess I will be more excited to meet my darlings then going to her house. But it’s okay because I know I will get to see quite a few old time friends down there.

Okay shall not talk so much as I also quite lazy to type words… Good Night Bloggie, hope you like the new skin :)

2010-02-07T09:56:00.001+08:00

Yest I just met up with my pri sch friend that I’ve not seen for 8 to 9 years, I think its just so amazing how things can happen as it is because of a random post of our class photo that let us get back into touch…

Looking back at life of mine I think its really have not been easy, not easy as a PE captain, NE representative, monitor/head, unit admin, CI, ALPS & AR member, synergy president, best friend/darling, friends, GF, youngest sister/daughter and etc…

I guess as someone that do lots of SK, I’m one of the better ones but talking abt living in this world I guess I can be seen ranking from the bottom ba…

I’ve just came across a post which I should have seen last week and what is mention was right… effort = 0??? I couldn’t see it too…

Fuck up, I really dun noe how I should continue but I guess that’s the end…. Shan’t write any more…

2009-10-21T13:14:00.000+08:00

20th Oct 2009
Today we all woke up at ard 7plus by the noise outside our room which was make by the forever uncle clyde...haha it was not the time we estimated to wake up but we woke up... quite tired as i din really sleep well yest nite... but still quite alright i guess cause at least i slept...
Wash up and get change and off we go to have our breakfast at 7-11... today is the 1st time we eat breakfast at there so still quite alright... I had a fan tuan and it was quite nice...after some eating and chatting we went to the office and off we go for the 1st day work 
We actually did nothing much today as most of the time is talking and asking question except for the morning when we have a round of introduction and later on we also went to their challenge course and campsite to take a look...it was so dame high...compare to ALC its really different... not really in the activities but the height... we were imagining that it will be dame scary to stand on the pamper pole and giant swing...
So back to the office we had lunch which just look like mini buffet with mix veg rice dishes and so the food is all acceptable by us... same same la..haha after that we had more information of OBT and their activities and some of our job scope (even thought till now we still dun noe what we will be doing). Everything is still quite raw and so we only chat with some ppl more and some less...hopefully we will be some help as now there is nth much we can do but to listen and absorb as much as possible...
Today we got to noe a bad and good news from OBT itself which is breakfast and dinner is on our own when what was told to us is that all three meals is by them... some aids is the good news and also the solution which is we will e receiving some allowance from them every month and some places that sell food ard our office we can have offer price... i guess that is helpful enough as there is nth much we can do also...
We also had our own desk and so after moving our stuff we went off work at ard 4 (when the work log sheet wrote 530pm...haha we first went to try find the super market that da mao told us but we can’t so we went back hostel and get change and put down stuff and off we go to 7-11 to have our 2nd day dinner... mindset will be same dinner for everyday will die???haha
Went online to call mum and JJ for a while and off we go to some town area by walking a 15min walk from hostel to the bus stop.. have a nice chat with the sausage seller and board the bus and went off... some interesting happen but i’m tired already so lights out for me le...
Oh ya... i ate ji pa already.... so different..haha

19th Oct 2009 – 0033hrs (201009)
Today I woke up at 7plus and start doing my work. Mind was thinking ‘oh shit, today flying off but i still have so many undone things’. So with that i start to pack and also online to chat and do some work esp abt doal shirt where i have to pass it to azim to take over...
Then at ard 10 plus my family (except father who is already at work) woke up and started to prepare to go over to the airport with me... when they are almost done I’m still packing and not even change and shower so at this point its kan chiong and lost... mind was thinking ‘what did i not bring, what did i bring extra’...
Went out with hse with one big bad and one smaller bag and a pouch... look quite alot huh...took a cab and reach the airport quite fast... saw khai and later on james, suat ting, clyde, nisa, azim, denial and more family and friends from the four of us...after bobby reach we check in and i still blur thinking that we need to wait for khai mun to get some passes or what...
Mine and Clyde bag weight 18kg plus and ting and bobby is lighter by a few kg... wow quite a big different huh...haha after that went to eat and KM came then follows by fang and bro... Had a chat all ard almost everywhere and everything seem to be quite rush as time is running...
After that was going in soon and before going in we still make a joke which is going in the wrong gate and the correct gate is just beside...haha had good bye with JJ for very shirt while then left to say bye and take photos... i guess this part is the sad part as some cry and it just make me sad and thinking if we are really leaving till next year then be back... i miss my family seriously.. The lively crazy freak...and i miss all my friends who always supported me in all ways...
After we went in it was quite a straight walk to our belt and when checking hand baggage ting scissors kana confiscated... went up the plane and ting bobby and Clyde is sitting one side and I’m another side with 2 empty seats beside and once we confirm no body sitting Clyde join me in the bigger space... bye bye... we are really flying off already...
On plane we eat, talk, take photos, drink, read, listen to music and of course sleep... and after 4hours and 25min plane we finally reach tao yuan airport and funny things is that because we din fill in where we stay so there is a small problem at the counter in the end the part was fill with tao yuan hotel..haha
Went out and collect our check in baggage and off we go to find ppl holding on to OBT republic poly... a taxi driver name Mr Ong fetch us and drove us to where we staying... oh ya by this time prepaid card is brought under my name as I’m the only 20 year old (their legal age)...
On the car we were chatting and talking abt all sorts of things esp bobby who are more interested in boobs and butts...haha we also talk to Mr Ong and ask quite a number of question.... after 35min we reach and at the counter Ben came and fetch us and we went to the office to take a tour and at this time bobby found that his phone when missing and till now still couldn’t find...
We had dinner from the 7-11 store some bento set and drinks and eat at their office before they take us to where we stay... very quickly we finish our food and started walking to where we gg to stay... quite a long short walk with my biggest bag on my shoulder supported by my hand as its inside the big duffle bag and i din take out to carry on both shoulder... luckily i manage to carry all the way... it was tiring and heavy....
Reach the place it was not as good as we were expecting but still overall everything still quite fine and we girls are on 2nd storey while the guys are 3rd storey... had music unpacking shower chit chat and etc and finally it’s time for bed... tml we will be reporting slightly later than others at 0900hrs and waking up at 7 plus... good nite all my love ones...

2009-10-06T15:31:00.001+08:00

I guess Taiwan trip is confirmed already? 19th October, the wah so fast feeling is not that much anymore ba cause we suppose to be there long long time before today... but good and bad staying in Singapore while waiting for all admin to be settle ba...

Now the next big problem is the camp ba... I know that our flight is just 3days after the camp but still the urge to join is strong and i believe we can tahan it... not trying to be ‘I is strong’ but just wish that the DOALs can have a camp tgt and that is another memories to be created... Mt K is already a sad thing because we just miss it out due to.... hmm hmm hmm... then now the camp? I can’t really decide now actually... part of me wanted so much to go for the camp and enjoy as much, part of me want to stay at home and conquer the whole hse with only me at home for the whole week... I guess more thinking come in ba...

Next sad thing is SAFRA adventure race 2010... it so going to be my last youth race as i will be 21st soon... but guess what... I wun be able to make it as I will only be back on jan 25th and the race is 24th... is really sad cause tot that i will be really just in time with a week or 2 week rest and training before the race and now i’m so gg to completely miss it... isn’t it sad... I noe there is still more SAFRA adventure coming up but it’s the last youth and i still hoping that youth 1st still belong to SBSO Awesome Republic but i guess it’s gone ba...

I guess in life there is really alot of give and take ba... alot of experience that one can have but there are alot of things that we need to give up in order to achieve...I wish to I wish to... there are so many I wish to but how many i can put a nice full stop I also dun noe... Whatever is it a Jia you ba...

PEAKS course was rather meaningful ESP LengEr part where alot of interesting ideas and question were use to explain every parts of the test... I guess people are just so smart to create this kind of few hundred questions to understand ourselves... JJ you should try the test cause there got a career area where will state what aspect you are suitable to be in but too bad you not RP students if not you can log in and do...haha

After the course was briefing about this coming sat event and also OBT and OBHK explaining session... and of course lunch together with Taiwan ppl... of course our main topic is Taiwan attachment and also the pre IIP camp... surprising that I’m having lunch in RP... but tot that i will not have much chance to eat E1 western food soon so I eat lor..haha

Currently in my secret nice quite cosy place in RP library again with ST at my back and Clyde beside ST... Waiting for AR training to start and so we are waiting... but still alright lappy is here means will have things to entertaining ourselves...

Quad is coming but i have not skate much... die die... I guess i really need to go skate to get use of some distance 1st ba... hopefully i dun drag the whole team down too far ba...

That’s all for now first de...

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2009-10-05T15:57:00.001+08:00

Okay, finally starting to blog already cause I finally modify finish this new skin...

Currently in school and have been:
- Updating the DOAL shirt list because more changes and updating came today
- Modifying the new blog skin that i just change (as usual i will modify till my liking or tired)
- Chatting on MSN as people are chatting with me and entertaining each others
- Chatting with Azim (who is still beside me), Clyde (who just left cause he finally think he is bored after gaying alot with Azim), Nisa and Ting Ting (left quite awhile already)
- Checking mails for updates of RP news and DOAL shirt

Actually i wanted to blog a few days back when I’m looking at my calendar and found this few dates:
- 7 September 2009
- 14 September 2009
- 28 September 2009
These dates is a roller coaster feelings dates... those who know are smart, those who dun noe its okay as it is not important anymore...haha

Oh ya...using my new mouse already... haha so far not that bad i think..haha

Today briefing cum meeting is mainly telling us abt the camp so that we can be preparing for it. So this means that we have some homework to do before next week come... have always tot that it will be quite sad cause we (Taiwan ppl) will be leaving earlier and wun be able to attend this camp but look like nth to be sad cause we are still attending this camp... half half looking forward ba...

Now blog till here 1st ba... gg for training soon...finally can motivate myself to train le...

2009-09-25T01:53:00.001+08:00

Seems like things are not going very well actually... family, Taiwan and more...

Daddy body is aching again... yest help him with some massage and think that seriously he is getting older and same problem is coming back... it’s been long since I help daddy in the massage and its really tiring but looking at the way he walk and talk worried us... he is always fun loving and naggy dad that is acting crazy with us... always will be...hope the aching go away soon...
Today er jie did the massage... it was quite long (I think)... I was helping mum in the sticking of some papers by very bo liao designer... but it’s a home extras so just do lor... sometimes also dun want to see parents work till so late and so hard while sometimes just tired to help.. But whatever it is... help as much as possible ba....

Taiwan attachment postpone again... I guess is not sad but Sian ba... dun wan to say anything much but hopefully we can at least noe a date so that we can plan things as hoping one day after another is hard... nvm,....

Another thing I would say is abt the DOAL shirt... wat a failure sia... thinking that things can be settle long time ago but now it’s not... how long more will it drag? I really dun noe...

This few weeks has been rather happy a.. ppl ard me like family friends special ppl new friends old darling and friends are always ard and meeting cause of the always farewell or last dinner b4 departure... I can say I’m leading quite a free (but not that) life with no sch work, outside work that tie me down...I guess everything also will have a time to put down and not turning up for too many event can be good ba.... but I m really worry but there is nobody that is indispensable in this world so it’s time to let go...

Event like quad and some famous runs and even ALPS or DOAL or AR trips are coming but yet there is nth I can do as I won’t be able to join any at all.... but I guess some times in order to gain sth you have to let go of sth...

Okay now is already am already i think I better go have my slp already... tml will be a long day too... TC... oh ya yest climb and today row is wonderful but there is so little we can do which is quite sad and I dun noe when is the next time I’m able to enjoy as much again....

2009-09-22T03:16:00.001+08:00

Okay complains are coming in already so I will really blog now...haha

Currently is half watch a HK show DVD and blogging so I guess this entry will take quite a while to finish cause the concentration is all on DVD more...haha

This few weeks is not say very busy but every day is a sure got things to do but I guess that is not so good as flight is almost confirm and still things are not settle... especially school stuff... I guess is not dun wan to put down but it’s can’t for now ba... but soon....

I guess flight should be confirm already ba...28th sept 2009 to 4th Jan 2010, it’s really a 16 week long IIP... with the thought that IIP will end in dec, I really think we will have a much shorter IIP but still the same...
Leaving Singapore for so long is not really a good things especially leaving family and all people around...

This few days I have try to pei whoever I should be with and go out with friends whenever I can...I have very happy time seriously.. It’s good... going places that I have never been, sitting bus ride, eating and drinking and etc...
For family side it’s the same... especially when da jie is around and not flying... the whole family will be tgt where dad will nag mum will laugh and being laugh and both sister will be ‘shouting around’, playing around... I guess I will have to give that a miss for quite awhile le ba... plus I’m so gg to miss the Dubai and Egypt trip that my family is gg but without me...sobs sobs...

A few more days to departure already... I will miss a lot of things but I believe attachment will be really a good experience and I’m really looking forward to it as there should have more then what we can think of to learn...

Miss Miss... shall start blogging now 1st... Sleeping soon already... good nite and morning...

2009-08-27T00:36:00.002+08:00

Have been rather busy and lazy about doing things and yet everyday is so.... hmmm... i guess got to plan more...

because fail to plan plan to fail... as usual...

i just hope i can enjoy every moment before i miss everything for around 4 month....

2009-08-14T17:48:00.002+08:00

Tuesday:
What a long long long day again…today is darling fang bdae….. HAPPY 20th BDAE!!!!
Woke up in the morning and went straight to hougang to get some stuff for baking and the picnic later on… today time is tight as I might go down to NP to fetch darling (but I din)… went back home and took around 2 hours to prepare everything when I actually only plan 1 hour… poor planning… but luckily the result for both the cake and sandwich is not that bad…

its written: HAPPY BDAE CLAUDIA MA HUIFANG

Because the time is already running late and so I din make it to NP so I meet them straight at marina bay… back to barrage and at the same area… its sunny and windy and hungry…haha settle down and started chatting and eating… I would say although we saw lots of weird ppl but still it’s a nice place to chat… but nite time still the best I guess…haha

Left the place with some funny jokes and off we go to orchard to shop around then off to k-box at around 7 plus… zhen din join is so she went off first… around 10 hours was spend inside k box with just me and fang… sound so crazy and yes it is the first long hours k for both of us… sleepy hungry and soreness..haha

More photos when darling fang decided not to be lazy…haha

Wednesday:
FYP DAY!!!!!!!! OMG, finally its here, a formal and serious day… abit of rush here and there a bit of confusion and a lot of nervousness and now its finally over… details shall not be posted as its all over… no more FYP no more cock session… haha

Thursday:
Finally have a morning to pack… my junk corners at home is really messy… have been out quite often and things have been so pile up… clothes is finally wash and hang… place is finally a bit neater… hopefully before I leave for Taiwan I can done almost all my clearing…
Went out so late and long waiting is cause… so sorry about it but finally you saw the real me who is always late…haha JKJK… went to eat and off to town to shop… bus ride has always been good if you got good company…
Went back to school for training and ice and water is the answer… but in the end the game was not play but basketball was… din want to play basketball as I m kind of sucks at it so went for a run with kai… was chatting and so mainly on Sunday half marathon… so scare that I can’t complete… but hopefully I can ba…

Friday:
Today was at home packing… another big messy place is clear up… all my clothes now nice nice inside already… cool… and finally clear some emails and send continue on the DOAL tee again… now I just going to pray that the shirt will be just in time…

Was told that I seem busy… hmmm I guess so… but I really have been slacking a lot on work that there are still things that are not settled…. But luckily now only left with UT3 and 2 more lessons before school break starts… let’s hope everything goes smooth ba…

Zhen xi shen xia de shi jian… jia you….

Thought abt it… I guess its okay like that ba…

2009-08-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

WARNING: this is a super long post!!!

was about to post on last last Sunday but haven type finish so it drag to Monday… then when Monday going to finish already power went off without batt so everything gone… so I will see if I can post successfully today then..Haha (actually it’s been very long since I wanted to blog already)

It’s quite a long long long week’s day and end so this post should be quite long ba…haha…

Friday:
After CCM lesson (which I don’t really want to comment on lesson here) had synergy meeting…everything seems to go well in the whole IG where new member are all good to continue in helping the IG… stepping down was mention not by me but surprisingly by Glen… It’s good as what ting ting told me about stepping down and of course I’m thinking too…

Meeting end early and so going down bliss was not that rush… but when I reach home bad news came… dad told me about the bike and I guess its not suitable to cycle anymore so have to rush RJ and so then off I went take bus then walk to bliss… I reached quite fast so was talking to some who were already behind bliss… so we chat touch my head and etc… bliss was overall not that bad today other then naren case…

Went back with Xian and naren and the intension of sending me home is stop by me as I think I can walk home myself so naren send xian home and I went walking alone… this is good as things going round me require some quiet thinking time which I already am always thinking…

Saturday:
Reach home wash up pack up and online… by the time I’m done it’s almost time to move out of house so I only can rest on bus then…overslept for a stop and so was a bit late (5min) when I reach jetty… no one was there and no one pick up my call or reply my msg… that’s weird as I don’t know what else can be done… but luckily Jason called and so I follow the FI in… it was weird but what to do… after reaching campsite it become worst when no one around too… went chance, walk, found then duty… area 3… my NPAP area and saw a few familiar cadet… went kayaking and kana scolded crazy cause I was using a doubles and doing Sudoku… nothing wrong actually cause life saving duty is not that ….hmmm…. after that stay with the rafting grp for 2nd cycle and was told that after that we are off… tot it would be till like evening… went out and took bus tgt and went over to city hall… and went preview…

Its been long since I watch NDP even it is just preview…. Had fun singing along and doing all the things and of course the parade where someone seems not so interested about… haha JKJK… sit there for quite long for the crowd to be gone but got good company so quite alright la…haha

A random thought from someone to eat sakae supper buffet so we did but its seem that I ate more then someone who suppose to eat more… was quite full after that so we tried to go for the last train but no more so we went to take bus… spend quite a long time deciding where to go and etc before gg over to JE mac and ton there…

Sunday:
What a long day today especially the gg home part in the early morning after a breakfast at a nice dim sim shop just pity that the porridge wasn’t ready;( the bus ride home was super munkok… dun wan to talk abt it anymore…
After reach home charge phone den quickly went out to meet naren xian and rena for escape le… seems like the game inside is still the same but I guess its quite new to the rest so we played and played… oh yea… we had ice cream and ji pa (chicken) as lunch… after that finally home to rest…

Monday:
A day of normal school and technical training by ah bang david, abseiling is always nice to me so of course the first volunteer to start off is me… nv abseiling from the rock wall side before so was rather excited… had some fun and learn some things or rather practice some skill so still not that bad…

Tuesday:
Another normal Sian class of elective class… next lesson is planned, no one is coming… good... cause no one interested in the project…
Had AR training with some alps people and also the kayaking gang… not that bad as it was a new game type of training where we run on track… and I guess we found someone that runs fast… real fast.. hidden talent wor… after AR training continue to have a short run with alson on the track… some extra training huh…

Wednesday:
No sch but still in sch…. IIP meeting, place and date is make know... truthfully I think shouldn’t had though abt that first but yes that is the first thing I through about… actually it was quite a few things on mind including 99.9%... quite shock ba… after that ran off to bliss thought that I will be later but apparently I was earlier compare to the late time that I stated…

Thursday:
Went k box with sis, mum and sis bf tag along… quite long din get in touch with Chinese songs and so almost all I can listen but not goes along… hopefully next Tuesday wun be like that too…
After that went off to lavender to make my passport some up and downs and the lonely waiting time making me dosing off… luckily still in time and effort not wasted.. Now only can pray that things will go well when the time is up…
Still had time but phone went dead but still I try my best to help coordinate the collection of star 2 certs and I did after much effort but sometimes I wonder if I should but wat done is done so what to do… din really had a good trip so dun wan to recall anymore…

Friday:
CCM lesson in class… Sian dun like classes to be in class when outdoor can be us but what to do... stay in class and do some program stuff… I guess next lesson will be fun ba… lesson ended early (rare case)
Rush home after lesson so that I can rest but nv really rest but watch tv so yup... after that went to bliss… just when I tot the day gg to end off like that, I have a visitor… haha went home and change and supper at mac and back home again… its just amazing how things work (I mean bike) haha

Saturday:
Reach home and do everything and wait a while more and fall aslp finally… dame tired already so slp was of course good… no much plan other then meeting alson and kai to collect safra half race pack so decided to date parents to town and so I went down to town after the collection…
Went fish and co at glass house to eat... I reached quite early so I decided to wait inside… not that bad sitting inside so did some of my stuff while waiting…had quite a full dinner and a bit of shopping and off we go back home…

Sunday:
Initially was thinking if I should go for the climb and later on decided to go… so off I went to climb Asia with Mel and James and YANNI, Alex join later and Gerri last to join… its been long since I last climb so I guess it was not that bad… route are harder compare to RP one (I think) had 6 blister in total at the end of my climb…
Went off earlier as I need to reach vivo at 5pm… was slightly earlier so ice cream treat is on…haha went around to look for nice stuff but nth much was found so its rather sad…
After dinner and ice cream we went off to barrage… walking there is rather long and hot but what to do when a bus will take longer then walking and shuttle bus only stop at the start and the end…
Barrage was really a nice place... kind of love it as it was cooling and quite quiet (although there are still lots of people around)…. But I guess what was scarily the whole nite was the sudden spraying of water and the very light pink sky and the crazy wind… other then that everything was good I guess, shall not say the details…

Monday:
After the night we went for a breakfast and off we went home… had a short nap/sleep and wake up for breakfast with my parents then slack all day till now…
Just handed up my poster not long… I just hope everything will be alright including the presentation on coming wed… sound scarily huh…
Haiz… I dun noe what I have done for the whole day man… tml will surly be a big rush when nothing is done today... Hopefully everything will be good ba… barrage and k box tml….
There seems to be quite a lot of stuff to be worry about now…. I just hope every thing goes well ba…

2009-07-30T15:58:00.001+08:00

Okay now even more sian le… rp pool is not open till 4.30… so wat?? I can’t swim till then????? Sad sad sad…. I guess I only can swim after training then… but hopefully everything will end before 8pm so that I got enough time home for the 9pm….haha

Oh ya just now forget to mention one thing… my lappy really cui on me le… now the batt can’t really use le… it will only last for minutes le so die le lor… dun wan to say le…just tot that I can go for a lonely slow run??hmmm yea… maybe I should..

2009-07-30T15:54:00.001+08:00

Its been a while since I blog… currently in school… going for a long swim soon (I think) and its freaking cold over at lib here even with my jacket on…

Finally settle some emails regarding tml synergy meeting (agenda is done too) and also the DOAL shirt… hope the shirt will go smoothly ba… but apparently it doesn’t seems so…haiz

Been through quite some stuff since the last entry ba…. From short hair to shortest hair…. From nothing done on FYP report to report submitted… from confirm to not confirm… from unclear to clear….from more to more…. From round to rounded

Have been bald for one full week already….. lots of comment here and there… I guess in the end I still cares lots but I guess I did sth that is good… had been quite shy walking ard so bare but still I did it… is just that I haven got to meet some outside which I guess will be more shy ba…

FYP has been so far a torture but is also because of myself so can’t blame… but now that report is done… what’s left is poster and Q&A so I guess is still alright ba… finally can put down the biggest stressfully thing…

Some things have been so unstable even from the start of the plan and so I’m not that surprise when things are about to change and I expected it but I really don’t know it will really come true…. 99.9%... at first I still can’t really accept but now I totally accept le… so it’s just timing le ba…

Now that things have been sorted out it can be counted as good? bad? I don’t know but one thing for sure is that when it is clear things will change… maybe for the better…

Okay so now I guess all the race is confirm le ba cause registration is done but m quite worry for quad as I might be off early… but back up plan done so no worries… the rest of the run should be quite alright ba… yellow ribbon, safra half, L&P…. way to go….

I guess I have really not been working out that much huh… have become so much rounded esp when my head is so round…haiz…. Die die die… so fat… minus mark….. work up more and so I’m gg for a long swim like soon… in 10min time… an hour plus swim before AR training start ba… yup yup.. og ya muscle pain sia… from Tuesday strength trainin… bad bad… oh ya action asia were mention… but how to go when things are so not firm?????

Things just not going the rite way as it suppose ba…. so so so bad...

alright i know what will the comment for this post be... muz be positive and etc ba... lalaalal GTG bb....

2009-07-22T13:14:00.003+08:00

Currently in school, again in the small corner of RP lib… guess is the best spot so far in RP other den a room… just that sometimes piano sound will be quite loud when beginner starts to play…haha

Went for breakfast at town this morning… I guess it is my first time having mac breakfast in town… and someone actually snatch MY sugar from me… okay, so wats wrong with putting 6 pack sugar for tea????hmmm maybe there is a problem but still mac tea really taste better with 6 pack sugar and taste bad with 1 pack sugar and 3 pack coffee mix… oh ya, I had ice cream…. Yea is ice cream although it’s raining I’m coughing and it’s in the morning…haha

went to have a short walk at central point and its was rather big but empty… saw Via Ferrata Singapore for the first time and I guess it will be quite cool to at least climb once…. I WANT TO CLIMB!!!! Was treated as small girl and foreigner and was angry la… causes someone sound as thought I really dun noe how to go everywhere even the toilet… ren xiao zhi qi da okay….

Okay that’s my morning and I guess its time that I should leave the earth and go to hell now for my project…haha

Oh ya before leaving blogger lets post a photo of what I have receive yest… I think its dame cool cause I’m invited but will be going to see Mr President with my bald head...haha

2009-07-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

Today was another ___ day…

Went school to meet tham for FYP and was nearly late cause the bus ran off in front of me… dame angry and fire burning inside me… guess wat, the next bus spend another 20min to come and this make fire grow but soon it went down cause times passes…

FYP meeting start with all the DSLM gals and only 2 DOAL gals… the rest…. Hmmm no comment….after the meeting I went off to the lib the same small corner to try to work on the project but was just very distracted by almost everything and in the end only little was done…

Went for HFH briefing and only 5 pool soul was present… the briefing was all about the cancer foundation and etc nth much and was quite boring but hau teck was full of energy while toking to all the ‘cows’…. It’s coming… HFH is really coming in less than 30 hour I think… a lot of comment heard but whats now… its already decided so I can’t just turn my back and walk off… be brave even things are gg to be lost…

After the briefing went for revision classes for outdoor leadership module…. Was not that bad as I get to have clearer view but I simply dun like UT cause I can’t really score well…haiz and OL class now a days is really…. Haiz * 1000000000…. Same view with qiao yi abt the class.. but wat to do… is already out last sem with module so just endure the class ba….

After that went interchange with Ting Ting, Nisa and dear…. Wat a combination man… and its been like super long since I went back with someone… but guess what… everything just changed as fast as spilt sec…. I miss the good old time but too back it will nv be back….

FYP is KILLING….. I hope the mood of lit review times can come back… now seriously I find it hard to concentrate and the submission date is like dame close but where am i? I can’t even see the ending line… wanted to put down things like synergy post but I can’t at this moment… IGs already are cutting down but yet it is not efficient… the only word heard was jia you but I guess in the end it all depend on me myself and I ba…

2009-07-20T08:33:00.001+08:00

Weekends have just passed like that again… its Monday again and here I’m back to class… y is weekend always like the same… I guess the only special thing that happen this week end is sat ba…

Had alps training in the morning at SRJ while some are having H2O challenge at NYP…. Was kind of late for ALPS trn due to the wrong estimation of bus journey… so hazri they all start off with the 1 hour route… reached before they finish the loop so decided to do one set of SRJ first… saw some NP ppl including Ms June and also some ppl racing….saw hazri, admah and nic on J and walk back and start another set after a short rest… was rather tiring after a long stop on climbing training so only 2 sets is done while hazri and admah went another round me and nic (hu have work) left…

After that went home after a while and start preparing to go out for Mr. Potter and supposedly ice cream…. Potter wasn’t that good but the food was not that bad… I’ve finish almost ¾ of both nachos and popcorn, amazingly … after that went to the esplade there… its been long since I been there and the timing was just rite to catch some firework and music by some live band… overall a nice relaxing nite… but…. Mm…. oh ya… were told that I look like a guy and a duck… hmmm do i??? sad sad…haha JKJK

2009-07-16T14:45:00.001+08:00

Just finish my lit review and is preparing to send it to the court to see if it is sentence to jail or death…. Scary huh… the effort send in it is not say little actually…but I know surely it wouldn’t be that good….

Currently still in the lib, since early in the morning at around 10am… reach school at around 830 for CCM revision and gg through of UT 1 (din score that well)… ya you were rite, I got nth better to do to just come school early in the morning just for the short revision and stay in school almost whole day just for a ALPS mgt… haiz it really seem to be very bo liao rite? I guess so…

Was talking to people while working on my lit review… some motivation to finish it I guess…multi-tasking is a good way of not being over bored…

One of the topics of chatting with someone is about people and friends that are going further away from us… since that event had ‘successfully’ happen things have change… is it because of that event or is it because of things that happen before during or after the event… especially you… the one that sort of bring me in.. is it because of something that had happen after the event that make you leaving or is it because of the school work…. Hard to understand how come this will become like tat… shouldn’t it become better but not worsen?? I guess no one knows abt that ba…. Excesses’….

Still got lots of part to the project that is not done… but its hard… but wat to do??? Do it lor…

2009-07-13T11:48:00.003+08:00

Hmmmm today I just decided that it is a FYP day and so I gg to do all my FYP stuff and by right I suppose to so jia you…haha

Yest at bliss was quite an okay one…. Better then last week when I totally sian… but the crowd yest was very little and so most of the time wat we do is stand there and walk round and round. Was the IC again and Jen is the break IC and so she confirm wun send me home earlier so through of that disappear and never come back…

Sat was helping boon (fang bro friend) to celebrate bdae at kovan super bowl…. Its been long since I bowl… was a bit tired but still bowl for 2 round then me, fang and fang bro went to play arcade while Eugene and boon continue to bowl for 2 round… after that they went to eat supper while I just watch them eat as I’m still quite full from the buffet with family earlier on…

What a happening week for me with so many things and outing which I usually don’t… okay... think I should go have my yest dinner cum today breakfast already!!!

2009-07-11T18:39:00.005+08:00

Today morning came home after club and pub was really freaking tired so went to bed as fast as I can and woke up in the afternoon… I had a really nice nite (even thou butter flash room sucks and it was a bad dancing music) because its been long since I play so much especially with my dearest darling fang… we took lots of photos and when it is uploaded it will tell it all then..

Was going through some photos (that is in a mess) in my hard disc and memories just flow back…. So far it was the ALPS team photos… the two mountains was fantastic… although it may not be the perfect climb but it is the best memories I can have. I guess I will miss climbing with the team so much as I dun noe when will be next as I will be missing a lot due to my attachment… miss the team so much!!!!

Another thing that came to attention today was the video I make for fang on her 2008 bdae… it was so so so challenging yet nice video…

that's all for now... will be out for dinner with family!!!!

2009-07-10T09:11:00.002+08:00

some pictures to tok on my behalf...

Republic run with ALPS!!!

Dessert with mum on a Wednesday!!!

A milo by James for concentration and determination...cute sia...

2009-07-10T09:01:00.002+08:00

Around 45min later to lesson… loves CCM lesson as it is not so boring and it make me move…haha hmmm jia han and dave said that they wanted to run this week but I guess the deal is off… but still the same rules apply… no gases drinks for jia han..haha I not being mean but just being good to him…

Yest went sentosa… its been long since I last went and it changes quite a lot because of all the renovation going on…. Found a spot and started to lay out everything… it was quite a hot day at first so went down water quite often.. 30min interval...haha oh ya... I din go there just to tan and slp wor… I brought my FYP things there too... I brought a book to read and the end result is I read on challenge by choice and full value contract… hopefully this can successfully help me in my lit review (I guess so)…. But I kind of regretted to bring so many things over when I din do as much…hmmm… my bag was like freaking big and heavy because of all the readings…. Went back at around 4 plus as the sun is down at around 3 plus and crowd was coming in (which I dun understand why ppl come sentosa on a thurs?) haha as usual I got lost searching for bus 80 bus stop and finally found it, thought of buying an ice cream to eat but that uncle is slow in the front customer so I went off… BUT I WANT ICE CREAM!!!!!!! Took a 1hour and 30min bus home and slping was the activities gg up there…haha

Hmmm things happen and are coming again… I hate it but have to accept it but when will it end will it be good or bad… I wonder and wonder… is it wrong is it right… haiz so sian la cause is like… hmmm… hack la… anw I think after the date it will disappear so now just jia you ba…

2009-06-28T17:44:00.001+08:00

The cheerful jess doubts everything she uses to have and believe everytime.

Wat is actually going on in everybody mind and body i really don’t know but the most important thing is mine.
Everything seems to be the best including me, but what is the fact lies behind. Everyone is thinking the grass on the other side is greener but which side is actually better?
Question reminders memories are running everywhere. What can be remember is remember, what cannot is trying hard to be in, what else can be done.
Just wish to complain but everything is not so suppose to be out when there is no ****. I can’t is what i tell myself which seems to be the problem to me.
Crap, i don’t know what to share here anymore. Off i go.
Oh ya, the FM my mum listening to is playing the song ‘Ni Kui Bu Kui Le’. What a best song.

2009-06-26T08:00:00.004+08:00

Was in school early as usual but today is slightly earlier as I’m able to wake up not really on time but early i guess...
Yesterday had IIP briefing and the whole meeting is talking more on LS 1, 2, 3 and BM. Was slightly later as i was helping someone with an out of sudden request. As usual the briefing drag and because of that i drag my friends time too as we were going for race briefing.
In the end we cab there and we were early and the organiser was late. The briefing only start at around 45mins after the suppose start time and again it drag the time... and here it goes, late for meeting darlings at Bliss... but they was very patient which i was really thankful but of course dessert is on me...some pictures to tell its stories:

Went home at around 11 plus with zhen and dan keep chasing me off the bus stop. Walking to the bus stop alone let me reflect on the things that were chatted with the girls and also enjoy the lonely walk.
Today was a late day for everything and again disappointment sits in due to ****. This line was mention in the IIP briefing ‘successful people have good **** management’. At that point i was already thinking that I’m not one. Also in the briefing a lot of things were mention especially about dropping. The question is how? The answer is unknown but i know sooner or later i have to, i guess is all up to me to let go.
Thinking needs to be done especially on what * ****** ****
Okay as planned, I’m going to do the interview collation and so i will start in 1 minute’s time...

2009-06-24T12:48:00.001+08:00

Currently in school for around an hour already, just now was doing some stupid fire drill where the bell ring for very long but still nobody starts moving till the library person asks us to move. Actually i guess this is all because of the pervious weird random drills that cause us to be immune to the bell.

Can’t seem to get started on FYP when I’m supposing to, I dun noe what to do and are giving excesses to it... hmmm later will have FYP soon... again is the word but if not how will us ever going to complete. I guess wat can be done is to die die also force to do it. Hopefully everything will be good and fine.

Ezyhealth skates event have been so unstable. I really dun noe if we are going to take part. But is true that it is rather expensive and might be not that worth if there is no jersey as my main is fun 2nd is the jersey. Hope i will get a reply soon ba.

PLEASE START DOING FYP JESS ONG SZE HWEE!!!!!

2009-06-19T03:16:00.001+08:00

Is early in the morning and what I’m dong is fb quiz and chatting... OMG i better pray that tham dun read blogs because i have CCM class and UT and i will be meeting him for FYP and lesson....

What to do. Slacking is something that JESS ONG SZE HWEE good at...haiz

2009-06-19T01:02:00.001+08:00

I find that after that it was a bad thing when it supposes to be a good thing but maybe is because of that thing but not that thing that cause the bad effect. I myself don’t understand but can feel but i guess maybe this is what i suppose to feel. So what i should do? I guess nothing much because i can’t control and is out of my hand. Maybe is going to be like this as it was plan of people just reach this way. I really wonder, but i know bad thing will stay bad and continue to be bad when nobody seems to care but actually they want to but they can’t. Maybe is just the sin that cause it to be bad and is a lesson to be learnt but the lesson is big as it has become pretty bad.

2009-04-07T17:54:00.001+08:00

Went khatib camp to have a lunch meet out with senior and master warrant Yeo... I guess is just a chit chat session to get to know us and to intro the few of us to master warrant Yeo... senior warrant Yeo will be leaving us already... he is going over to another camp... senior warrant Yeo ha been very good to us... but i believe master warrant Yeo will be good too ba....

Today there are 4 of us that are under JPSDS gathering around... with some others around including 2nd warrant officer jeniffer and 2nd warrant officer CW.... (Some RP people there) got to know more about the SAF updates and the important of studying now??Hmmm

Had been send to the publicity team to work and later on to the admin dept... hope things will be good....’

2009-04-07T17:41:00.002+08:00

Back from batam for a few days le... guess picture will say it all....

What i only have to say about the trip is what you think will happen will happen... but what to do???

2009-04-02T06:44:00.000+08:00

Here to blog again before i set off to harbour front to take ferry for the 2day 1 night Batam trip....

Tue meeting i dun wanna blog....so it will be past...

Wednesday, April fools. I was really sad i guess.... kayaking is not the thing that make me sad but losing of my eye wear is something that i tot of but did nth and it really goes with the sea... why am i such a fool... and all the why come into my mind... i got nth to day cause i can only accept it... what else can i do...
End of expedition and was super tired... hands was aching and was thinking ‘shit, tml cable ski will have strength ma?’ but i guess it was quite alright ba... oh ya, after the wash up at Camelot, Steven came to me and pass me his eye wear and he gave it to me. So shock and surprise, he said it was an army issues and he already had his eyewear at home so ask me to take... i feel really bad to take it but no matter how i push it back to him he also say ‘ just take’ so i took it... (But i m still very sad about my own eyewear...

Today is Batam trip... i actually just hope everything will goes well and good...please tell me i did not do the wrong thing...

But i guess i won’t be as what i think ba..........:(

2009-03-31T10:00:00.002+08:00

Now currently in school... feeling super tired as for the past few days was sleeping rather late... (Sunday @ 4am and yest at 2am)

Shouldn’t be in school so early... but....................................................................... (I noe can le)

Doing all the reply mails and things suppose to be done but not done... but my eyes is seriously closing le.... still got 30min till people start coming in (meeting is at 10am, but not all will be on time)

Yest at bliss, Xian cut hair and i continue to tie up my hair... all the people there were like calling me kit (xian) and calling her jess.... do we really look alike? I don’t think so...haha imagine if Eugene is there, i guess it will be worst ba... 3 new people came in to work yesterday... was guiding one of them... was so shock to put someone new under my care as i m still as blur... i taught her whatever i can and rem and hopefully the correct thing...haha

Went home and after a while started to play the chocolate game... da jie really got me addicted to it... but i still prefer my previous game... but its all gone now... my hard disk... talking about that my hard disk still with Daniel... i noe he is busy so i try not to fan him about it... but it had been quite sometimes le....

Yest morning to afternoon was in school having some FOP student leader training... it was totally boring i will say... seem like not much people is enjoying... also had found out abt the SHL com for FOP... was chatting and boom!!!!

That all... maybe will start my chocolate game or wat ba....haha

2009-03-29T19:25:00.000+08:00

Here i come again....

FYP meeting... reach the national library at around 9 when meeting @ 1pm... Wanted to start some reading before the meeting, so went early and also wanted to ask about a suitable place for meeting too... was surprising that this sotong (me) didn’t get lost in the process of finding the library... reach the library and was totally lost, not outside the library but inside the library.... had not visited the national library after O’s, so din really know where is where and so... was so blur inside going up and down looking for a right place to study... then finally found the student lounge... went in and the feeling inside make me think of last time went meidan always drag/bring us there to study. Started my reading for around 2 hour and off i go to get some stuff and back to the meeting place... by then Eunice and tham had both reach and the other 3 msg to say that they will be late... estimated they are late for 30min... tham start the session first and obviously what we did was that little... but still discussion goes on and we ended the meeting around 2 hours or more later...

Reach home rest for that little while and went off to bliss.... was drink runner today with Xian and is good working with her.... went home only at 2am and i went straight home while she went to have a drink with the rest of the bliss people....

Sat was another resting day but at night was not as i have to go down to bliss.... so after a day of restless day at home i went off after eating and showering to bliss... today i was the food runner and it is the first time i become a food runner and i think being a food runner is rather good as i either have to bring the food out or wipe the utensil or have to bring in the plates so i will kind f never really stop working... today Mr monkey called... but was working and so i cant pick up.... although i never pick up the cal but at least i know he is safe after some many days of no contact... jen send me off after i wash the trolley @ 1am so i went off after i ate the rice and say good bye to Xian who came with her sis to drink and chat...

Sunday was a fully free day for me... no bliss no rp no anything... but was slacking all the way watching tv and typing the batam thing... something happy will be the batam trip have been confirm... all the things had been done nicely... first time doing all this things so was rather happy...just hope everything will goes fine ba... cable ski I’m so going to come...haha but thinking that hand will die after that make me still happy....

Now GTG le... going dinner with parents...haven really eats anything other then tibits for today... so proper meal coming i guess....

2009-03-27T04:23:00.001+08:00

Here to blog again and this time its at the AM period... its currently 3am gg 4am...was replying some mails that was quite some days ago... hate the dragging habits of mine as things always get drag because of me....haiz

So let’s talk about racing??? Have been through 3 races with the AR (adventure racing IG)...
1st race, safra (SAFRA AVventure 09: Rough Ramble) was the tough and happy one as it’s the ‘so call’ first official race ad some more is a major race... my partner was Mel and i guess she really did a good job despite of her injuries...our hard work and coach hard work did have some result as we were the 1st youth women team... it was surprising for me as i really tot we are so just going to enjoy and experience the race.... thanks to all that supported us in all ways....
2nd race, NYP race (Synergy Race)... race partner this time was a guy, alson. Were scare because guys and girls standard is rather different because of the inborn ting... but it was a good race as both of us is pushing each other from all the long running and minds games and so... the eating of raw eyes cum shelf will always be my memories and the first camo will also be a nice experience... again good job done in the end as we came in 3rd in the invitational mixed team...
3rd race, VJC (D.A.R.E 2) was another long and endurance race.... my race partner is not new to me as we took part is the rp race when we were still not in the AR IG... Hui Xian, my partner.... the two blur queen are together... we rule man as we both are blur as sotong and before the race were quite a long rest (without training) for us... but still we manage to complete the race with the help (here and there) and by ourselves... it’s really good feeling as we were concentrating in the race and awaiting for the next challenge checkpoint after checkpoint.... all the counting is driving us crazy but still the race continue... running swimming paddle boarding kayaking keeping eggs counting bus numbers and rags biking orienteering Sudoku climbing abseiling and etc is what we had done and completed... good partner and other racers and supporters make the whole race nice and ended nicely... had 2nd for the race so another good job done!!!! AWESOME!!!!

After racing now go back to life then... had just been through the sports climbing level two and i found out that there are alot of skills to blush up on especially the skills that i learn in other course like abseiling as now i also unsure how to change from ascend to descend... had trie but guess it was bad... for the new skills i guess it would be the lead climbing...the simulating of falling that we did for lead climb was really very scarily... had a half land on my knee and half on my legs... its bad but i just scare of the emptiness that is with the fall... fearful i guess...
All of us still need to improve on our climbing and so we will have one more practice session and then our assessment... hopefully we can clear this together...

I’m so missing the monkey out that.... yesterday was smsing him for the first time (during his trip)... was not feeling very well as i can feel that fever is coming and head is freaking heavy... after the sms pop two panadol and off i go to bed to prepare for the next day (day 2 of sports climbing level 2)... anw 5 more days and he will be back!!! And its dinner with the AR on the same day... so going to look forward....

And not to forget about the batam trip... hopefully everything will go well.....alright gtg le... catch some rest before i got to wake up and read about FYP things(shit, haven really read up and tml is the meeting...haiz)

2009-03-14T09:35:00.001+08:00

Early in the morning 9 am plus plus.... was searching for some information online but looks like it doesn’t help much....

The matter is dragging and everything jess is doing seem not to be quite right as i have use to the skills of dragging... that’s very very bad but what can i do?

What a day today gg to be like? Fun sian bored exciting? I dun noe, having race briefing later on and maybe clinic... it’s a Saturday and it does seem quite right anw...

Yest was out for a date... walking around town area (wide range), movie, buying eyewear, eating chatting and travelling... a day to relax and out for fun and with great company....

Today need to go bliss after briefing... a bit sian but no choice.... sometimes it can be quite fun here too... learning about new alcohols and dish... doing the wrong thing and learn from it... being blur like i always am....

Oh i got my riding licence sent yesterday. Finally its here as it is a register mail and so last time it was send to my house but no one to receive and so i have to either go collect myself (which i have no time and till the last day when i was at SANA i forget as it was quite busy) or call for redelivery (which i did only at the last day when the post office is close but luckily the request was accepted and it was sent to me the follow day which is yesterday).
But although i have my licence already but still i can’t ride as i don’t have insurance.... sobs sobs!!!!

2009-03-04T12:53:00.001+08:00

In school again, in another 10 more minutes kayaking star 2 gg to star again. Today is the 2nd day and i swear i’m so gg to master the self recovery skills (forget the name again “palata roll”??)

Hands waist are aching but still like what someone said, ‘jess nv say die’ de jin shen will be there de.

Looks like tml will be another long day. Yest was talking to fang and she ask me can i make myself less busy but i also dun noe why there are always things gg on? Maybe some stuff just couldn’t be stop ba...haha

Think kayaking 2 stars i will be able to clear then now left with sports climb level 2. Hope i can get into the course as it is only for a few students... limited space.... recently just pass my life saving 123+CPR+BM... super happy and super scare i will fail due to the insufficient practice but still i got it...but haven serve so have to wait and see ba....

Now gg over to the pool le... i hope i can over come the fear under water and successfully do the right roll....

2009-03-03T18:12:00.001+08:00

Currently in RP E1 canteen, super duper tired and my eyes are closing like real soon.

By rite i suppose to be heading home when this situation but am waiting for mel they all for dinner. I wonder y actually.... hmmm was surprise to hear that then was a bit disappointed then felt a bit weird.... i wonder what jess is thinking sometimes....haha?

Wanted to blog more but have to leave as the rest is coming soon....

Blog soon!!

2009-02-24T14:31:00.001+08:00

(Currently in school)
Morning went for AR training then after that stayed to use the lappy.
Yesterday chatted with him for a while. Then went off to watch one more show and then sleep. Nothing much at night actually. Just that home finally have all 5 member, but da jie flying off in the morning again.
OBS had been postpone due to some dates issues but its ok as i was thinking of not gg anw. So now maybe win - win situation for now.
Wednesday will be going out with daring fang and zhen, its been a while since we last met. I guess exam have really stress them up and they need some fun and rest...haha hopefully it will be a good one...
Had change my blog skin but i think its something that i really like but i guess its ok... wait till i found something else than will change it again ba....
Miss...........

2009-02-21T18:31:00.001+08:00

Had just come back from Indonesia (climbing Mt. Kerinchi).
Freaking tired cold and different experience.... freezing cold morning, freaking long ascending and descending road (including submit push) and never seen in life the ‘black rain’.
What a group what weather what a climb is what is in my head right now.
Feel so much but yet so tired to write it all down, but when i want to write down i can’t cause data in my brain will be gone and reset...

Excited to reach back excited because i might, but in the end i couldn’t see what is there to see couldn’t get what i expected. Sometimes i really wonder but sometimes being different is just needs to be like that. Haiz...

I know i can be irritating, totally understandable....

2009-02-17T06:03:00.001+08:00

Just here to said that i will be away from today (17th Feb) to sat (21st Feb).... will be going for a climb at Indonesia.... a still alive volcano.... preparedness (not really) ready (i not sure) team mates (known but....hmmmm)

Will see when i’m back...

2009-02-09T14:07:00.001+08:00

Just came back from my life saving extra lesson for not long... have been missing quite a lot of lesson due to other reason... LK is right i dun noe how to plan my time well... i have to agree cause the fact show me so...
Timing for item 1 of BM sucks... from 3:05 becomes 3:30.... wat a disappointing result to me... wonder if i got pass the test if i still dun buck up and practice more...

Okay la, try to bluff myself by not mentioning LS 1st... Something happy yest, completed 60 storey vertical challenge... i guess it was great although it’s tiring ba... good encouragement and accomplishment for both...
Went beach road to buy stuff and eat after that... went home straight after eating when i tot it’s not... nvm... went to airport to send Stanly, Jean and mike off for stanly coast to coast challenge... after listening to all the conversation we had at the cafe i guess its gg to be a real tough one but i believe stanly can do it... its his dream anw... in the conversation there is also some gear slut topic.... i guess i m the only one that is not one of them....

Thats all for now... later at nite gg to do some stuff... cool... finally i guess....

2009-02-06T21:13:00.002+08:00

Today was supposed to be a very fun day, but it was half fun only i guess.

Had synergy retreat at Yishun Safra, almost all peeps were late other than the faci’s.... had our short climb of around 1 hour plus...
Than after that went for a lunch cum dinner meeting... synergy future? No one know's... is it?

Anyway i just pass my TP (it’s finally) was dame happy yest... seriously... now is time to think about the future of that i guess...

Outlook mail box is seriously full... i also dun noe what to do with all the old mail... clearing it have an issues not clearing it is another problem, why muz there be so many pros and cons to things?

I guess it’s quite sad when it become this way where we hardly see each other and haiz....nvm

2009-02-04T22:26:00.000+08:00

Time to update this blog I guess....

Lots of things have changed other then this blog and life is getting in a mess rather than tidying up (where it suppose).

What should I update I really don’t know, is like so much to say but nothing is in mind now when I trying to type it down.

Tml is big day lets look out for it ba... update more again...

2008-10-15T08:09:00.000+08:00

Today finally decided to put down some thought as I really feel that I need ba… been thinking lots when walking to sch… thinking what to blog what to write what the problem with me…
Today was thinking about something that happen recently that trigger some thoughts in my mind… couldn’t let go of that thought even after so many words had been said… who could and what could…
I guess nothing ba… not going to say anything here ba… people who understand should know that what kind of person I’m in saying things…
I guess now I only wish that no one will fly kite on me again for the cup’08…

2008-10-03T08:22:00.000+08:00

Yest was a very very very super duper sian plus tired day… slept on bus 161 woke up and was super duper shack…saw christon on the way to school and he was saying I was shack too…haha
Reach class started com and start watching show and updating blog and returning comment… din slp as I think doing things will be better…
Lesson was super bored and I got no heart for the lesson at all… but lesson still goes on… the lesson ended on time but it wasn’t end of hell as first UT is next… UT kind of sucks… din noe question can go rather difficult but its over what I can do…
The fun started only after all the study ended and when AR training start… we start of with some team biathlon practice where we run and cycle intervals… team up with Jean and mel for sometimes… after all the practice including biking… after that we started briefing for our mini adventure race….
Race was super fun and tiring... team biathlon, biking, navigation, pacing, puzzle… wun describe if not its going to be long…it ended quite late and we went home quite late with a very tired body… oh ya today winson is going to Hawaii… coming back only at dec I think… training on our own the next few weeks…

Today was a very sian day too I guess… but awaiting for the night to come as its SANA dinner...Dressing up and chatting with friends….

2008-10-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

The week have passed, time flies really fast for me and maybe a number of people out there… everyday life seem so busy yet nothing much have been done…
24th September
Have game session with synergy and the game we played is Wii… turn out was kind of bad so I think it’s rather…. Anw it was my first time playing/using Wii so its quite of excited..haha we have an inter-synergy tennis competition and Tham take it all… after that we walk to causeway together and spitted from there. Some went to get food some went home and I went to get goggles…

25th September
Today had biathlon briefing and so I went with my partner Xian… before that went to eat with Alvin and Jason (guys do talks a lot esp when someone is their target)… was late for the briefing as we kind of lost of where to go at W5… after that went back to class….
AR training after school was fun because we doing bike skills and I think we can really learn lots skills... But a few got injure… had a long chat cum discussion with the committee which I’m actually odd one out... but still went off tgt with mel and kai…

26th September
Today is a long day in tern of activity as morning afternoon and night are filled with stuff…
Morning was normal schooling but today we are going to the pool as we are learning about some technique of skin diving. Cat 1 was on since morning but luckily it went off later in the afternoon and we got the time to try out the skills. Anw class is small with only 8people with one that left earlier.
After lesson we were slacking around near the pool till the registration for RP biathlon start. Was in the wave 2 which is quite nervous for me and xian… tried to swim the 4laps as fast as I can but I guess without training is really a CMI thing la…haha Xian do the best for the run too and finally the nervous mood was gone and we had our first team biathlon and experience and fun…
After biathlon went off to SK for SRC meeting… was late as I left sch later den expected. But in the end the meeting is actually at later part where the member were actually playing and drinking… had a while of fun with them and meeting start at around 8-9plus…first time sitting for the full meeting feeling a bit same as CSC meeting ba… blur and nth I could do…

27th September
Today AR training was change to shopping for the IG and so e mel and kai went beach road for the stuff needed and for our stomach… start there for a few hours and with a number of things… went separate way after that…
Meet parents for movie at PS, but before that went over to marina square to see my darling who give out a big reaction upon seeing me and check out the movie slot (cinema closed)
Went PS to eat and buy stuff den to the movie (mamma mia). The movie is super duper nice as I’m really loving it… it makes me think of the past and remember many songs that are so famous last time…

28th September
Today is a low low high day….
Start of the day like normal resting day… waking up late… parents brought food back for us (sis &me)… played majong with sis and mum and won money…
After that we went to eat, I set off to CP to Q for the swensen’s… this is where the high part is… the 3 pretties when to buy things and dad was sitting around the Q area… din see him at first so I gave in a call when Q is near our turn but phone was diverted out… I guess he can sense that I’m looking for him so he stood up and move toward me… he told me that he left his phone @ home…
Inside the restaurant while we were waiting for the food my phone rang with dad number… okay it is super duper scarily, isn’t dad phone at home and whole family was inside the restaurant… pick up the call and realised it was kind hearted man that had picked dad phone and wanted to return…
Ran back to house area to get the phone… can’t say anything other then thanks a million time… it was so so so ‘xian’ as dad phone is new and he dun even noe about the lost phone till the kind hearted man called…
Had a nice dinner and went home to watch F1…. Alonso won…haha

29th September
School start again... suppose to be very boring day but because it was land based module where we are doing rock climbing and so I was excited about it… had only around 10 people in class… learn lots especially on equipment.
After sch was meeting time… 2 meeting to go… 1st was the SAP meeting… stayed as long as I can and was late for AR meeting but still meeting goes on…

30th September
Isn’t today supposed to be holiday??? I guess its not as we are having AR all the way… went IKEA and giant with mel kai and MK…
Meet mel and kai on bus 27 and it took 9 min to reach IKEA (amaze)… it was my 1st time visiting tamp branch and so I was very blur but I’m sure we had fun choosing and playing around and sharing the likes and dislike of furniture…
Met the lost sheep (MK) during lunch… had a long lunch because of chicken wing which I had 3 of it… super full after that so brought a heavy stomach to grap the stuff needed and went off to giant… had a quick shop for toyoko boxes and titbits and off we go heading back to sch…
Reach school quite early and meet mummy to clear stuff from last RP adventure race… saw addi… long time no see…haha
After all the packing we had our AR training… running and navigations…

1st October
SELEMAT HARI RAYA & HAPPY CHILDREN DAY TO ALL!!!!!!
Went to sleep at 3am yest (on floor) wokr up at 8/9am replying emails and so on… went out with family to watch eagle eye… the show was quite nice and excited but end of the day the reason behind all those things link down to the same thing…
Had dinner then came home…
Super sian as two day of holiday just gone like this… was doing out a list of commitments that I had… it was 10… why do I always have so much to do but in the end nothing is done… so sick of all this feeling and days…
Guess I going to stay up to do the un-finish stuff again ba… can I not???!!!

2008-09-24T16:32:00.001+08:00

ok its been one week that I have not blog I think… I m actually quite blur of wat to blog so I shall start with everyday life…

On 18th September 2008:
It wasn’t a good day and I dun wan to describe much so that the end…

19th September 2008
Also nothing much to blog about as it is just lesson then home… next lesson going pool for activity.. will see how ba…

20th September 2008
Morning suppose to have AAR for sec 2 ATC but in the end I din go due to some reason… had AR training that day… saw mel on bus and from her I know that there is only 2 of us plus kai and so 3 of us will be training… went swimming and mel was swimming quite siong as she is unhappy swim lesser den her.. kai was LATE and we had a fast swim and after that went for a run with Jean… it was 3 round trail run… it was 6km but it doesn’t feel like… went home rest after that…

21st September 2008
Ok today is a new day as it is a day that happen quite a number of things… first of all whole family went out to Outram for two purpose. Blood donation for me and visiting da gu at general hosp. was certify not able to donate blood because of iron level too low… haiz always have this problem… it’s the 2nd time le… so sian la…
So we went to GH to visit da gu as she just have an operation… seeing her with all the tube and all this and the environment of hospital really give me a very weird feeling … and I actually thought of fang darling as I saw the nurse there working…
After the visit we went to CP to buy phone as both dad and my contract is due soon… dad continues his M1 but because I dun like so I change to singtel and we took quite a long time setting the milo plan as there are quite of lot of things to settle… in the end dad brought KF700 and I brought KF 750…. Which is a bit similar… wonder why we always have similar phone as previous phone of ours is the same.

22nd September 2008
Ok today lesson was fun as we were building tents and I learn and use quite a lot of things. After sch went for ALPS… after so long I finally go for the training we had a 6km plus run and some gym session… promise to go tahan with them during the 1 week holiday and so that holiday is burn up…

23rd - 24th September 2008
Ok today lesson was super bored and lost.. dun wish to talk abt it… after sch was AR training… had some training of endurance which I actually was quite tired to maintain and so I din do welll… after training we had a AR meeting and it ended at around 8 plus… reach home only at 9 gg 10… was very hungry and tired but PP have to be done. So after eating I work on PP and was too tired so I went to slp 1st… woke up at 3am and start doing PP again den fall alsp and wake up… finish up PP at sch and finally submitted it again…
Today lesson is so super sian… was not listening to the ppt at all so I guess today grades gg to be bad… anw she also wun give good grades…. Now is already 1630 and lesson haven end when it is suppose to end at 1600… today really drag big time la… sian…
Was gg through some blog esp dar fang de… I know we are in a game of drifting but we wun drift that far de… of course movie soon… will be awaiting for that day… yup tell me ya week days ba… dar dar take care wor….
later going to have synergy activity hope it will ve a better turn out then last week ba… tired and sian day….

2008-09-17T16:53:00.000+08:00

Weeee… lesson ended.. Another EE lesson gone… but think will get a normal B grade again… but something that I and happy about it land base and finally my alien class…haha

Ok lets talk about today… the class went to the park and we went in till the mangroves swamps and some of us (including me) went down to the swamps to see and I even catch a crab which is so fun… but is fun at that point only… other then that all the sight seeing and the introduction I cannot really hear as only front people will be able to get all info…
Went back to class and work and work quite fast and so I finish earlier and start watching movie… finally got chance to watch… however its only for a while cause soon we collate the slides and do presentation….
Overall today is ok la.. later having synergy activity… think turn out will be bad cause of late emails but hope at least got a few la… blog later….!!!

2008-09-17T10:35:00.001+08:00

Yest was a tiring day… seem like Jess life is forever tired la…haha
Went into a class that I dun belong and very difficult to be belong and started lesson… did my best in trying to work and all these and finally end of lesson…
Xian came and look for me in class after her lab and so we stay in class till around 5 plus… called my parenting company and ask abt $ and I feel so cheated… shall not blog abt this as they are BIG….
Xian is a very straight forward person which I think is good and she can be very nice and blur person at times… and most importantly she is my best partner in sports… we are taking part in biathlon that is coming next Friday… but we take up the challenge for fun and experience only..
Went after school with her to the bia clinic (running) there is only like two gals two guys and so we set off to run… 800m is wat we did and the rest was all on technical stuff… finish within 45min and so decided to join AR for training… (So sorry xian)
AR was tiring but because the people its dun and nice…. Running up and down slop is seriously killing but still we did it… taking pacing is not difficult on flat but on slop... you all can try… 71 – 51 – 21, three number and it sound like women figure and that wat we laughing about because it is a big huge 1st number…
Some funny and interesting stuff that happen…Just to clarify something about AR…. I didn’t touch Eric butt is KAI who touch it…. Yup yup… all of them were laughing at me because they say I sa jiao… Jess cannot sa jiao meh???Haha was sotong today as I forgot elson name and so I called in Wilson… haha dun be angry… next time cycling still must help me carry bottle…haha
Walk to causeway together with laughter and silence….haha after that went for CSC meeting and I open the wrong door as the room that we use for meeting is occupy by all the big heads….haha so throw face as all of them turn and look at me… today meeting I was a little more focus and it end 2 hours later which is around 10.30 plus… reach home had dinner watch TV and sleep…. Too tired and lazy to do other things…
Hope today will be a good day…

2008-09-16T16:55:00.001+08:00

Ok now I gg to blog about two past day which is super no face…. Anw this is around 1000 words so don’t read if you dun wan…hahaha

Sunday
In the morning I went for motor revision and what happen after 1 month 2 weeks of no riding is blurness and clumsiness… din do very well for the revision but it was a revision so no one really care about you…I think I can’t make it…
After motor revision went back home and rest a while and out me and parents to boon lay for army museum visit… we went out later then what we expected and so we reach late… when we were there we saw lots of people crowding at the pick up point and what I heard next was the army guy calling names according to the list he had… was worrying at that point of time because warrant told me no need register and so I din… msg him and ask him about it while its confirm that we can’t board the bus… is like wow we rush all the way till so far then now cannot go is like…………….
After listening to some argument with the army guy from some youth that can’t board the bus it was really dishearten and the guys that argue were kind of angry too as they just throw the ticket send to them on the floor… just as me and parents were about to go off warrant yeo called and said that he want to pick us up and I was like.. OMG my WARRANT OFFICER wants to come pick me up… I like da pai la… was so PS after that as he came and saw one of the army guy that know and asked him and the army guy like look at me think hu I m la…haha seriously nei jiu sia…
After reaching the place which is at the other part of discovery centre we went in to tour with a army guy(non uniform) as our guide… it was a very short trip and after that all of us sit down to listen about the bond which is what I have heard so many times… feel so not belong as I have already sign the bond and so all those is no use… after that have refreshment and walk around and went off… was not feeling very well at that time so while waiting for the shutter bus to go I fall asleep and when I wake up and down the bus I feel like vomiting and I did when parents shopping around…
Reach home with a slight fever so rest while the rest of the family play with lantern downstairs and dad doing paper work… waking up with sis and mum playing majong and watching tv and so I slp and slack for the night….

Monday
Today is a sick day as was sick the night before so not really feeling very good… because today have motor revision at night and so I nv bring lappy and borrow from school… went back to actual class and though that people will come in class before the lab but it seem not to be as noone is coming in at all so I decided to go to the lab but the lift seem not to be of my flavour as it dun stop at level two so I play with the lift for quite sometime before climbing up stair from level one…
Reach lab with a number of them inside and timo is the special one as I long time no see…haha I guess I m a little late but not marked as late ba… have a short game and equipment check and soon we went out to cook… was shown how to set up and so on and feel that it is some amazing as never seen before or use before… cook together with soon siang, hong peng and jazlyn ad I believe they are great… went back lab and start work in 2nd break out and we slack and work…
Here comes the stupid part where JESS is so stupid…. When I fail my TP 1mth 2 weeks ago I tot my PDL will be expire by the next TP and today I m having road revision which will require PDL and so I rush out after class at 4pm as tham was talking over time till I seriously cannot drag le because the TP office close at 5 pm and I need time to travel…
So I ran all the way from sch to MRT there which took around 10min and took train for 17min and walk faster from mrt to SSDC for 5-10min and I reach there 10min before 5pm… get the Q number and I waited for 30min and to the counter then the person told me that my PDL is actually not expire and so I wasted my rushing and all… so stupid rite..
Actually want to find some place to nap but because I was so throw face so I decided to go home then come back SSDC again.. called mum and fang to tell them this and so stupid la… reach home for less then 30 min and rush out to SSDC again for revision… was late but still in time to catch up… have a ok lesson and again I feel tat I can’t make it… sian sian sian sian sian….
Oh instructor saw my hair and was shock and one said its not nice… sobs sobs… but is still ok la...haha
So this is the stupid day that Jess had…

2008-09-13T15:03:00.001+08:00

Friday have just passed which means that its weekends….
Just saw my grade for the first week… only can say is disappointed ba… I guess it’s like tat ba… accepting fate??
Had three meeting yest… one is for SHL cup… the other one is for synergy and last is for CSC… SHL cup is a responsibility, synergy is my duty and CSC is supposed to be experience but it seems that something is not really right…

Its already half day passed Saturday, and the rest of the half is for AR training… we are going biking today… woodlands to zoo to somewhere then back to woodlands… wonder how long its gonna be… actually I’m quite lazy to go out for sports today but guess with the fun people its gonna be meaningful ba…

That’s all for now… will need to go prepare for the trip le…

2008-09-12T08:17:00.001+08:00

Ok is Friday already… haven been blogging for quite a while cause this week timing abit wrong… haha so here some recap of Jess Ong life…haha

First I think I will touch on main point for Sunday….haha the main things was doing PP overnight… haven really started so have to chiong through the night and manage to do something but is still not done…

And so Sunday will link to Monday due to the overnight. When reaching 5.30am I switch off everything and went for the morning jog that I suppose to start long ago… came back 30min later and prepare for sch… first in class as usual and today is experiential land base… got quite a few of the class mate is my AE class mate… and guess wat… pei da was in my team again… same as last sem AE 1st lesson…haha think land base is fun as I enjoy the knowledge learn… excited for more especially the one on rock wall…haha should be can climb…haha OH… something to note today will be ALPS… because PP haven finish so was kind of force to go home and do by someone (you should know) haha I know is for my own good…haha so I went home and catch some sleep and eat then do PP over the night with sleepiness…

Tue din run and was kind of sad la… anw today is the special class as it was a SAS class… overall wat I can say is no bonding and hanging on with passion… oh the module is dietary supplements (elective)… went Adventure Racing training today… coach was there to guide us and teach us… basically the min focus was running technical but what is memorable was the physical and mentally challenge where we have to fun up hill to the top to get one item out of three that will fix one of the mind games. Was in the same grp as dear (Mel) and son (Kai)… first we work at the square and I think we were great…haha cause we figure it out quite fast…haha then up the hill again and next we did the car…haha again we were fast..haha lastly will be the circle circle thing… I think that we are great ad everyone is great in trying the game…haha oh lastly, luckily our team never play sudoko which eric team played…haha cause I got no idea how that game is play…

Wed have nth much other then tired and the whole day complain by jina bout the faci…haha

Thurs was actually the lesson that I’m interested in but after seeing the class… the only DOAL in the class isn’t that good anw… shall not comment too much on the class… after sch was happy time cause its AR training… and this training we are taught biking skills… including change of tube, cycling off road and cycling with one hand… din noe my cycling skills is so ‘good’ sia… still use to cycle everywhere last time… throw face sia… have lots of fun and learn quite some stuff… reaching home faster break fast and go and have my dinner as was super hungry as training ended late… after tat fall asleep at mum bed again… slp for around 3 hour then after that woke up see mum and dad still doing the paper work so decided to help cause it was quite late already… after that can’t get to slp so decided to use com… till 2 plus I went offline still not that tired so when to pack my stuff and slept at 4plus…
Friday, woke up late but still I reach class quite earlier sia…haha but super tired right now… today suppose to have gym session with jas, bobby they all… but postpone and suppose to swim with mel but because I will be late so wun be le…today is the farewell night for SJC NPCC… might or might not be going as only me, mich and vero going and its not confirm…

Oh PP was rejected but expected… so have to rework…haha jess is always tired….haha OH…ANYONE INTERESTED IN 1STAR KAYAKING???haha that’s all for now…
-Till I Blog Again Everyone Stay Happy-

2008-09-07T00:55:00.000+08:00

Wow today is already almost full day pass sat and I think I have totally wasted today for nothing. Wake up in the morning and started watching TV… after that continues watching show online and doing things at the same time… PP is only touch a bit and seriously I am dead sia…

Doing all those till late noon and went out with parents to eat and see handphones for me and dad… reach home and mum say kai tai and so we played majong… lost money is the result and so I decided to shou tai….haha

Lets back track for two days… thurs went to meet fang… saw Marcus in the interchange and have a small chat and board the same bus but no communication… reach late and fang waited for a while I guess… went to eat and chat… quite a while nv see her le… have a good update of each other life… have a fun day and movie wif her too… WALL EEEEE… (EEEEEEEVVVVVVAAAAA)…. Haha FANG FANG... I noe wall E….haha

Friday was just another day… another day of new class with many many new people that I dun noe and with faci tat I nv see before… but the class around me all also have someone tat I noe and can joke wif... like elwin and suan yuan and even nadiah… ended class earlier and finish doing work fast and went back with LK.. Saw someone tat I m not supposes and almost in the same bus but xiao xue bing bring me up the bus when everyone stop boarding and so I went home wif xiao xue bing…

Tml will be out wif family... hope I can finish PP before tat... Stupid and lazy Jess pls gets out…

2008-09-04T14:49:00.001+08:00

2nd day of lesson have pass for ¾ already, feed back for today lesson is not tat bad actually…

Was 1st to come in the class and start doing my stuff… 1st person to come in is him and out of expectation I can say… weird but conversation goes on…

Then slowly familiar facers came into the class… 1st was faci den is samantha… after that was all the stranger facers…

Was grp according to where we sit and so I’m settle with sam and her ex classmate… but if it is not this way I will be same group as him….

Psychology so far is quite ok cause the method Orla (faci) using and the topic was quite straight to the point… today is about goal setting and the 3rd meeting task was to set a goal for one of the team mates on majong paper so it was quite ok as the team was good in discussion…

Have a meet up session with the synergy people at the canteen and steven is funny as he thought it was at kou fu while we are at food heaven…. Meeting was rather quiet but point taken from all so still sth done… suat ting is good and effective in doing work and I think tat it should be her…

Meeting fang later… I m happi…haha blog later den…. Oh ya stop running for a long time le… I m serious dead….. haiz laziness have struck and nv leave me…sian…

2008-09-03T22:31:00.001+08:00

Have decided to revive my blog, so here I’m blogging again….

Today is 1st day of sch for me… start sch le… its so sian… while other poly are having sch we are having holidays… while others are having holidays we are studying…. Sian right???
Went sch wif LK today…. long time nv see… but its still the same as after…err...haha was the first to reach class as usual… but its only enough for me to set up com…
It’s a new class new day new module and so seeing people coming in class guessing whether is it someone that I know or dun noe… but the 1st few that came in is all known… feel not bad this way but this is only one day… four more new day to go… I think tml will be the worst… cause of the people…
Today lesson is boring and the procedure… but luckily the people is ok… hope environmental education will and can be better later on ba…
PP is killing me… no no no… my laziness is the one that is killing… haiss super sian…
Tml is meeting my darling… she is great and I noe tml will be great after sch…

2008-09-03T15:23:00.001+08:00

Blog is under construction!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

Very very long nv blog le. So I gg to blog before I gg off for camps and activities.

Now life has been quite different with someone else with me. Gg everywhere is not alone anymore. But at certain times still is… (muz request) haha
Every poly seems to be busy with project and exam but our poly is busy with poning sch???? Lesson is getting really dame boring and weird???
Today will be a special and weird day…. Start of the day with the thought of reformatting com in the IT helpdesk and borrow lappy from sch. So I did borrow lappy but reformat fail. The adapted wasn’t to my side so it kind of sad…
Back to the class there is only 8 people (suppose to have 25 people) at around 8.50am (lesson start at 0830).
So 1st meeting that suppose to last for 1hour last for 15min after tat make a quick choice and went to acer with the accompany of ryan… pin spoilt and no warranty = pay money…. Sian sian sian… after acer back to RP and just nice back to read some stuff and present…haha meeting 3 with only 6 people left….
Before meeting went down to take pizza with the ‘class’ of 6… presentation for 15min.. 6P for 2min and end of class..haha earliest class ended.
Thinking not to reformat so decided to scan for virus and cure it instead of reformatting so down to IT helpdesk… after tat came up to take lots lots of pic and now waiting… gg to collect lappy and that’s all…. Later training… update again with time table soon… oh… and hopefully with photos…haha

2008-08-01T08:38:00.000+08:00

I dun noe what am I doing and why am I doing again... Am I in the wrong? Did I make the correct choice? Question and question flowing… should I remain or should I not… should I give or should I not… I dun noe what should be done to prevent what might happen… ignore me and leave me… it will be better for all if things are like tat… will it? Will it not? Confuse… I serious not someone tat can make decision? But I trust it… but but but but but…. Forget it ba…

2008-07-27T15:06:00.001+08:00

It’s been quite long since I last blog, about 10 days le… things changes... And the very big change within this 10days will be status. It can say to be a sudden one it can also be not a suddenly one. Just hope the start is a good one…..
Things are getting busier Monday ALPS trn, Tuesday synergy, Wednesday swimming with 4G ppl, Thursday adventure racing training and Friday self gym and swimming training. That’s the program for the week. I m still weak, I also dun noe.
Another things up is camps, currently 3 camps coming up, National camp, SHL gathering camp and ATC/STC for area 7.
That’s the plan for the coming month.

2008-07-16T22:45:00.001+08:00

Is already wed today, times flies and I dun noe what I have done.

What I have gone through today will be CSC, IG, Lesson, peer and NPCC…

CSC: the course was quite ok. Entertain by the lecture and I can see how the ‘old bird’ works, what I can say it’s a different experience. Now I can really say learn as you grow even if you are old.
IG, it have been quite a failure to the activity I dun noe what I have decide today is right anot but just hope things can change.
Lesson: Has been ever sian cum ok, no much comment.
Peers: things change and friends are not the same.
NPCC: planning cum stress, that’s what I can say.

Nth much I wan to mention now. Oh ya I just notice that I find myself more problem by taking up roles in national camp and TP is coming and synergy AGM is coming, and PP is due soon? I really dun noe….

2008-07-13T21:00:00.001+08:00

Friday left school early to go SJC NPCC to see. Walk to causeway wif LK, long time nv walk with him le. Emoing and weird ba… I would not like to describe the unit on blog so I will just drop that… after training went to meet the SANA ppl as they were at SANA scanning ticket earlier. They were out at CP buying food and I have food too… mac… I m dead, keep craving for FF ba, its still under control (I guess). Leave SANA place at around 8pm and went home.

Saturday was again meeting time. Was supposed to be at plaza bus stop at 0715… woke up at 0700. Rush everything at home and went out of house at around 0715. Reach the bus stop at 0723 like tat and started waiting and 4buses went pass but still no msg asking me to board the bus. The bros and HO was late I guess. At around 0745, finally receive a call from daryl, but the content of the call was that the meeting was cancel and I serious did believe, Cheated. In the end bros daddy gave us a ride to monfort and we reach there at 0800. Before that already push back the time of meeting Jolene but in the end still was on time.haha. Went in and prepare and soon the meeting starts.

After meeting went SANA to help out in scanning of tickets. Reach quite early when WK and lawance haven even reach. When in for the sana recreation club meeting for the last part which is less than 10min then after that when to scan tickets. What I can say is it’s a bad and boring job but still I help.haha work there for around 2hours then went off. Because meetings and everything is early and so on so went home to rest.

Start to do minutes for today meetings at night then only finish at am. Doing minutes can actually kills sia. It’s so difficult. Hate admin work hate my English. Slept at around 3-4plus am then wake up at 7am.

Get ready and went to SK CC there for event management course. It last from 0830 to 1630 in between with 2 tea break and 1 lunch break. I think course is for people to grow fat de. Haha in the course I know lots of new CC, CDC, CSC and others ppl. Although the course a bit long but luckily the lecturer is funny and interesting.

Went home after that till now still slacking… going darling there to get sth from her soon. Yup, Miss her… think her life so far is not that bad.haha

2008-07-11T12:59:00.001+08:00

Here to update again.
Yest sch was ok, after sch I din went home straight already (finally). Steven had asked me to join the ALPS Team for training and I did. Finally got training and I did train a bit already. The run was ok, a 4,8km run. With Steven running beside me I actually feel god instead of stress. He is very nice and caring people that act like someone very senior. After so long of not running and the start running yest I feel that stamina and mentality really drop very fast. Hope I can build and train it back.
During the run it rain but still we continue and training actually help in reducing the tiredness of training. After run we did 5BX and in between run and after.
After training went straight home. Because never tot of showing o din bring stuff so I just change and went off.
Reach home was abit tired but still have work to do so started doing work after eating and helping mum o finish her work. Come out with synergy pp slides and weekly activity and went to bed at around 1am.
Today wake up a bit late, prepare everything and rush out of hse. Saw the bus past by me when I reach the 1st floor and so piss by it again. Sian. Reach sc and saw tham. He asks me stuff and guess I can’t take up the post after what happen in AE lesson.
Going for NPCC trn 1st blog later again.

2008-07-10T14:13:00.001+08:00

Ok let’s update abt my life for the past four days.
Monday after sch went to meet the SANA ppl at causeway cause they meeting up to watch movie and as wat lawance tell me they were also studying but look like the studying become arcade playing…haha tot I could have a meal of long john with them as I was dame craving for that. But my hope is gone when I call them after sch and found out that they eat le.haha still go find them and watch them play arcade and kana disturb by the not caring teddy bear…as usually WK will be the kind soul that is good. Now lawance also noe how to bully me le lor. After they go in for movie I went back home. No training at all.

Tue after sch was supposed to have synergy activity but in the end because no one was in proper attire for swimming and so we have to cancel the activity. Was so exciting for swimming but it turn out this way. Having swimsuit worn on body for full day is not good sia. After that we walk out of sch tgt and again I tot that we can go eat long john but again no one want to eat long john so my craving gone case again. So went home after that and slack. Again no training for me.

Wed was simple, got craving no chance so go home. Went home wif azizi. It was a while since I go home wif him le. He is a nice guy nice friend I noe.haha next wed scary day.haha before gg home went SANA hse to collect our allowance for the June course. Went home to slack after that.

2008-07-07T14:37:00.000+08:00

Here to update my week ends. What I can say is… tired and stress week days ba…

Sat went holy for sec2 camp meeting... Decided that Jolene is going over the sec 2 side and I will be at the sec 3 side… although want to stay together but I think we just can’t… the meeting was kind of… see fire???haha but overall it was ok just that you know I know…haha
After the meeting went back together with Jolene but different place la… noe more about SJC situation from her and hope I can help in one or another…
Went home to watch tv and rest den at 6pm went CP to meet the sec 3 side for another meeting. What I can say is that its actually not much of a meeting… went from 6pm to 1.30am but the real thing that concern the camp is less then 45mins.
Saw yol and the gang of pri sch mate. Think most of them wun really noe me.. but still its kind of good to see some…haha
After the meet out we decided to go do some exercise and so me and Daryl went roller balding with Denise and desmond run…haha I think they must be dame tired la as blader are tired too… we went till seletar camp there and U-turn back…
Slack for the whole night/morning till 6 plus on ROAD den we start to travel home. Reach home wash up and pack bag and off I go to our meeting place… was the 1st to reach den follow buy sir CK den the bros den daryl… was shoot early in the morning so decided to keep emo…haha
Went to the kayaking place and just hang around there. Saw relative and some RP adventure racing people… something that keep me continuing to emo is my partner for kayaking… no comments for that because I don’t want to mention much.
After that we went to chong pang CC there though that there will be place to shower but there is none so we only can wash up… make the floor abit wet and tio scolding by the auntie… but its ok cause like wat I tell the auntie I won’t be going there to wash up le..haha
We went to the youth room to settle down and wait till all fall aleep till around 3 hour later den all wake up and off we go to home…. Ate KFC and more at home and fell asleep while watching tv and dajie off the tv and went off to the airports to fly off… guilty that I din say bb but sorri I m tired…haha
Wake up in the morning and start to do my account and was quite a mess so I took quite long to finish and no more time to go for my morning exercise and so I guess I have to do it when I reach home today… oh might be going to find lawance at causeway later… have a crave for long john hope they wan to eat too..haha

2008-07-05T08:12:00.001+08:00

Ok like what zhen had mention on the tag board, I really stop and never blog for quite some time le. So I have change my blog skin again and decided to put sth updated on my daily life column.haha
A lot of things have happen and I dun noe what I can mention about that. Sometimes I just dun understand y things happen but I noe they had happened so no point thinking about it so much. Luckily it isn’t sth very big but still its sth.
A few decisions had been made/is going to be made. Darlings will update u all again.
I love all my friends and I hope everything will stay the same. I love all my darlings and I know they love me too and we will be still like ever.
Ok have to go now. Having ATC meeting at 9am, the war is starting soon. I can see ton of work and maybe unhappiness coming. What ever it is what I wish to see is bonding ba… update when I’m back.

2008-06-16T08:30:00.005+08:00

My 19th birthday celebration

2008-06-16T08:28:00.004+08:00

2 weeks of break had just ended yesterday I’m back in class, not that ready to move on. Things like study and sorting out of stuff are not done and my heart are not settled down. I wonder if it is the right time to start school but no matter what I still have to.
Yesterday was the last day of 2 weeks holiday. It was a happy and sad day, sad because it’s the last day, happy because of what happen yesterday.
Was rather giddy and tired as the day before I was drinking with long time no sees friends (JS). Since the last meeting which is this year new year (I think) we din see each other and after that he went in army, the more we can’t meet him. Had a nice chilling session with them, drinking, playing pool, chatting and kissing. Was rather high after the drink so maybe this led to me and Dan giving each other a peck on the lips (sorry shi Wei, but no worries she still love you...haha). That was after drink at China One den we went Mac… Dan left 1st follow by the rest, we went to catch the night bus and it was normal ba.haha my first time sitting on a night bus…haha

Went for motor lesson practical 7 in the morning next day, hopping that I will be able to pass and yes I did it…haha I pass my prac 7 and so I now is waiting for TP and license is near me… but sth Sian is that I might not be ridding after obtaining my 2B…
Went home den out with Morgan to marina there to catch THE HULK… was quite nice… after that just walk eat chat… reach home around 11pm plus, was rather tired so I went to slp.
Wake up the next day which is today at 4-5am… do my things and went for a jog. Finally start on my jog again. Since I started learning muay Thai I stop to jog in the morning which is quite sad la… but the thought of running in the morning and running during muay Thai training can be scary sia…haha
Ok that’s for the early morning, hope today lesson about health and wellness will be fun but think it will be otherwise… muay Thai trn later… but I m tired… sleepy

2008-06-14T13:31:00.002+08:00

yest end sana very early went club hse to play till my meeting time with morgan den after that go dinner den walk.. weird la.. hmm saw dennise on the way back to cp..

hmmm today is a sunny day... gg to donate blood later den after that meeting xian they all to go eat den after tat meeting ZP they all...

gg to donate blood... finally sia... after so long of saying and thinking finally call to book for time and do it...

oh fang is back...haha WELCOME BACK.....haha

school starting soon la.. sian is wat i can say ba...like tat nth during tis holiday sia... two more days and both day also gg out....

2008-06-13T10:25:00.000+08:00

ok now at sana again. today is a very very small grp there is only 30 ppl attending today course which is the lesser ppl i had ever seen... now they are watching ling ling so i m here in our room slacking... today mood ok ba.. a bit sian, dun noe y maybe... yest was chatting online at night. was DC for twice because sis and dad switch off the internet and causing connecting difficult even if internet were switch on fast. so its no use. was rather piss as it was quite a few times le...

think i really PMS sia and i feel that the changes...haiz i can't stand to my own stand anymore... out, paying, borrow and watever... its changing and i m hating myself to give in..

nth worth but my life is for now... 6 more years and still counting down

2008-06-12T11:00:00.002+08:00

I dun understand why must this world have the word force. Why do human being like to force human being. Yes part of this work is to do some stuff but is it a muz to do so? If yes I dun mind leaving. I dun mind helping in what need to be done but I hate it when I’m helping and force to. I know it’s a chance to learn but I have my choice. If this is gg to be like tat den so be it. I can walk out and nv come back.
What ever is it I m just angry pisssed off or wat ever… don’t know wat I typing and don't wan to look back at all...

not understanding from both point of view and nv will... take it that i m nasty and i sucks...

2008-05-05T08:26:00.000+08:00

Hmmm one week nv blog le… should have quite a lot to say but I also dun noe should say wat leh… hmmm becoming more and more contradicting ba… think I not taking another chance for the batam trip le… not gg this time ba… anw I have enough reason for not going too…

Last wed went for the meeting for the helping out for year 1 DOAL gathering… tio BBQ go home Tio mum scold...haha not really scold la.. Is just she say I KPO again… anw that day is on 2nd June… hope it will be good… I mean I want it good too la…

Last thurs went sentosa… suppose to be a very happy trip cause I been wanting to go sentosa but guess Is not that good ba… tio PS at very last min in the end not even half the class turn up and luckily fit came if not I will be only gal… but still W16Q rox sentosa… photos to be post soon…haha

Last fri was a blur and physically demanding day…haha blur because I forget about the time when I suppose to hand in the muay thai money… was focusing on work till I forget… after that go there straight and give all the details they want and walk back.. Receive call and guess what?? I didn’t pass that guy the money… walk all the way back again… after sch was UT den after that training for muay thai… just wanna say one thing is that its tough but fun… hope weekend lesson is on if not I might not be able to join…

Sun went out with fang and dan… miss fang so much… long long long time never see the both of them…. Have a good time I guess… although dinner was kind of… err err err…haha photos post up soon...haha

Today sch again… so sian but still have to come sch… anw this week going to be a busy week again… today after sch got CSC meeting with grain den after that muay thai training den follow by TKD training…

2008-04-29T08:09:00.000+08:00

Back in class… yest tkd… was fun and at least I did sth that make myself learn… usually I will just practice… but yest someone kind of guide me… so thanks wei liang… haha like very long nv kana guide le… since black belt lloyde not free and nv come trn den LT keep gg overseas and so yup yup yup… TKD today and tml… more trn can be better ba….

Oh ya another thing to mention is batam trip…. Hmmm should I go… 2 reason to go… 2 reason for not gg… thinking in process…

Today having UT… yest only read abit only… hope it will be ok…

Tml is zhen Bdae…..!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-28T08:24:00.000+08:00

In class again, but this time wif faci also in class le.

Yest have two motor lessons which mean I ride for abt 4hrs. Was tiring but was happi too cause I pass my assessment for lesson 5 at one go, which means I only need to pass my ridding theory test(RTT) and I can start my road lesson and soon I can take the test but its still a distance away la. I hope I can pass RTT at this go as if I fail the next test will be very long away I guess. Hate it, should have plan and ask properly…haiz anw heard from dad about some bad news for my plan of buying motor… sobs!!!!

Have family outing after my lesson… went home straight and start dressing up. We are gg TPY to the HDB there to help 4th uncle to buy his house… it was a interesting trip but a long one…

After that went to eat at xin fu yin cha to eat… family outing was rather good ba…haha went home only at night… one fine day gone… weekend gone… tml start sch again…. PBL, PP everything….

2008-04-23T08:19:00.001+08:00

In class early today have a few classmate in le which is quite unusual for my other class cause ppl hu will come school earlier is very few…haha

yest have sports coaching have to play captain ball and some of us din receive the msg of wearing sports attire and so we played with our normal clothes which is rather funny… sweat and everything… its all about coaching style and the one coaching our team is Vincent he is suppose to be commanding styles and I guess he did it cause he make one out the team mate shout back asking him to shut up because she fed up le..haha think he just role play only…haha

yest night having TKD at hougang… LT sir… its been long since I see him…very very long… denise sir was there too… I miss the kids and I think some misses me too..haha which is something to be happy… taught the new comer and so nv really do any kicking… think my kicking suck big time la… haiz I wanna train up but I dun noe how… went to eat with the two sirs after lesson… rojak and popiah again..haha oh and peach tea which… errrrrrrrr….. talk about BR case… it was sad that all this happen but there is a cause to everything so yup…

today morning jogging timing wasn’t good was rather tired and have a small fight with mun which is sad la… hope today will be a good lesson at adventure learning centre doing high element ba…

2008-04-21T16:48:00.001+08:00

Here to update again... as usual… I m still in class as I having TKD later think I will need to leave earlier if not later bus break down and I will be late… whats my motivation of TKD??? Hmm was thinking about it now… but I dun noe… this song have a meaning to me now or when ever I listen to it but its to me only….

Today lesson kind of suck as after all I think I dun really understand and we do not have the direction of where to search and so we did not do well ba…

Tiring day I guess… woke up at 4 plus and slack around till 5 plus den start to moves…. Was doing accounts but din manage to finish and I was kind of dragging the time for too long till I have to rush for my morning run and skip after run exercise… sobs…

Today I feel stupid right from the start of the day… 1st was because I feel weird in the long skirt as we are suppose to dress out of our comfort zone but guess what… I saw nth special as people din follow it and dress out of comfort zones… just feel that I look weird in all ways… 2nd was the rice pack that mum help to pack… everything seem to be leaking and is bad enough as I wearing white skirt… 3rd was to saw coi seng and peggy as I was in weird attire I guess…

Day just din go well la… oh ya I rejected NDP because family was like say no to it…haha ok la… was ok with it as in this case I got more time to do my others… oh ya… was ask to join SYF… din noe wan to join anot… considering…

Yest dragon boat was good... was 2nd in position and muz thanks my darling in entertaining me if not I thinks I will be sian sian ba…good experience but maybe dragon boat not so for me ba…haha

I miss my darlings… always… wonder how are they and are they doing well… I hope so…TC

OMG…. PP…. what am I suppose to do… I dun noe…

2008-04-20T01:54:00.000+08:00

i only can say i regreted today outing and now i noe wats gg on le....

2008-04-16T13:43:00.001+08:00

Ok now I m in class again… just finish all the work dun noe if our team PPT is good or wat… seeing other team like very hard working make me feel weird but today topic like nothing much to say leh… think my presentation skills still quite suck and my mind is blank sia… y can’t I think of sth better rather than everytime after PPT den say y I nv do this and that… sian… but I can’t….
Yest was at the Singapore flyer opening… helping as slacker… cause we suppose to help in registration but its taken over by Singapore flyer people and so we got nth much but to help in other stuff… went up to VIP room (function room) but there are nth to do too so was bring down to help in giving out concert ticket… was very cold the whole night esp the going home part and it was very tiring as I was slpy but not because of work… oh ya I get lost finding Singapore flyer and I was drench and late when I reach there… rush from sch still like tat.. Rush all the way… but at least I din go take taxi…
Today is very sian as I was very very tired woke up later den usually as I suppose to wake up at 5am but I only wake up at 6 plus… after waking up I still continue to lie here and there till I think I really going to be late le den I got up and get change for my morning run… today run was good as the timing show it… but today mind was not really there…. Found out that every morning when I run I will think of different things… today was thinking about sth that suppose to be forgotten but guess its not ba…
Luckily today bus came in weird timing if not I wun reach so early in sch… but today no need to squeeze as its wed… most ppl no need to come sch… today eat with my classmate at W1… feel very good cause got ppl to eat with and is at W1… a canteen that I go to when I was in sem 1 which is very good la….
Lynn(faci) is still weird and today topic is not obvious la… dun noe what to do hope PPT will be ok ba… I m just not an A student ba… feel so…. Thinking again… oh and I m slpy now… I wanna slp…

2008-04-15T13:17:00.001+08:00

Its been quite long since I last blog, just randomly feel like blogging and just nice now till have some time and my class is still quite empty as I came in earlier but com lack like siao till now so yup.

A lot of things have happen again… been real busy with life… NPAP, OBS, sis bdae, dragon boat, Motor lesson…
I dun noe wats going on in my life now because I think it’s rather messy in term of all those things that had happen and have not happen.
Just going do some random blogging so if you that kind that dun like randomness den u can stop reading le…
NPAP had just pass... think as a trainer I really did not do well as I din take the contingent good enough… it make m think being a CI is still suitable for me anot. Parade did went okok although there are a number of people fall out and there are some mistake but everything its over so quite alright. Anw saw a lot of people that I noe and have no seen for quite some time… which feel quite good la… but what I really feel I dun noe but its really happy to see them la… anw dennis dad drive us home… a big thank you to them…
OBS was obviously fun and tiring… I have make more friend again but I believe all are good friends to know… after the 5 days actually tot that there was unit camp but it was postpone and jac din tell me… but I still rush down and have unit training instead….went home and slept.. Was dame tired…the next day I having NPAP, before that went SJC to help jac with 2nd class but left quite early so hope it help I some extend.
NPAP preview… went quite well and we left early again… straight after the cadet left… is sis 21st bdae party… I was rather late but still went… din manage to see the cake cutting process but did get to eat….haha was really tired so I drop dead again… ok next day suppose to go for grading de but I din… cause was too tired and din manage to make it… but I did wake up to go praying with parents where I went with half dead body…went home only at afternoon and there goes my only rest when sch start the next day…
NEW START NEW SEM NEW CLASS NEW CLASSMATE…… BUT SAME MOOD…..
Let’s see… what can I say abt my new sem…. I have 5 different module, 5 different classes, 5 different groups, 5 different studying environments… WOW… so great… actually I also dun noe if it is good or bad… but moving around is just kind of tiring la… 1 class have around 25 students… multiply it by 5 I will have 125 and less new class mate this sem… I m still blur I m still lost I dun noe wat I can do but to try my best… this whats I can say but I noe there are people facing the same situation so can’t say much….
Now still in class from nobody in class till now we having 2nd break out… finally finish my work and so I continue blogging… later going to rush like siao le la… 5pm have to reach Singapore flyer when I dun even noe how to go and my friends is telling me to take cab which I dun wan la… but if really no choice I will… but not worth sia…
Oh ya… now having another thing that is bothering me… should I take part in NDP… is going to be a rare chances and I really keen of going… but do I really want to get busy with my so so so lan foot drills?? I use to be very confident in term of my drills…. But now I m not anymore…
Yest went AMK for TKD training… although my heart is going dead but still my mind is not… and both of them are connected… I really dun noe what else I can imagine… anw my tkd skills really suck now… was thinking of starting from white belt again but its rather stupid… hate it….
I misses all my darlings… esp fang… its been sometimes since I see her…so wat if we have lots of friends…. Just being random… that’s all… blog another time….

2008-03-29T15:42:00.001+08:00

those hu noe me pls do not ask me m i ok after u all have read my pervious post as u all noe what my ans will be so just read and go... thanks

2008-03-29T15:39:00.000+08:00

i noe i m very ramdom in this post as i also dun noe y but just type wat i feel and it make up this post love it or not read it anot is up to u... dun wan den just leave... sorry and thanks....

location now is at RP... today there is a event for becoming an grassroot leaders, i guess that is another commitment le ba... its gg to rain soon and suppose to get out of the sch by now but just feel like blogging but i noe its not everything...

Nv have i been free but y do i feel empty when my life is full of things to do even till ppl will get jealouse?? rather tired but i can't stop nor i can't go to one side...

know more abt my friends through reading their blog and all the get tgt session that i have wif my closer friend recently. i m actually happi for all of them... two have found very good guy to take care of them and to be taken care of.... one have not found that luckly guy but have found a grp of friends that bring joy and happiness.... i m really very happi for them as they are happi after all the suffering initially...

i wanna thanks all my friends that have stay wif me and giving me support... sorri for friends that i have hurt or not taken care enough for...

recently i went sentosa alone to tan.... because its rather sunny so it make me can't really think much... but i guess i have rather much time to think abt stuff as i alwasy travel alone...

met peggy at the grassroot leader ceromomy... she was like saying that now we can check our class on yandao.com.... just went to check and very good... information there are correct den i will really make alot of friends la.... i m in 5 different class for all the module... Day 3 - E55A (Module: S201),Day 4 - E55G (Module: S202),Day 1 - E54Q (Module: S203),Day 2 - E55J (Module: S213),Day 8 - E54G (Module: S234)...by right every sem we will have 25 in one class and so we make 24 friend and now i got 5 different class in 1SEM which means that i will meet 24*5 = 120ppl...

this song is rather nice.... was listening to it for quite some time le...if u wanna cry cry on my shoulder... i m serious my friends.... if u need a shoulder i have if u feel sad i m here... but i dun need a shoulder for now.... if i m feel sad and tears drop it wun be anywhere but my own little space where i be alone....

I NOE I CAN LIVE WITHOUT IT.... I WILL PROVE AS I M ALREADY DOING SO!!!!

2008-03-25T03:54:00.001+08:00

So since I'm not your everything
How about I'll be nothing? nothing at all to you
Baby i won't shed a tear for you
I won't lose a wink of sleep
Cause the truth of the matter is
Replacing you is so easy

2008-03-25T02:36:00.001+08:00

It’s been long since I last blog…. Actually I got a lot to say as many many had happen esp. certain big things like batam trip, NPAP and trips wif all my friends. But now I can’t type anything’s…

Not in a very good mood now as I just noe certain things tat’s is gg to happen when I dun even noe. But am I suppose to noe. I think that person suppose to be leaving just like tat ba… nvm… go according to wat u have said….good friend is wat u want… granted… enough of crapping le ba…hahahahahahahahaha

Will be rather busy next week as wun be seeing much ppl at all…. Gg obs on Monday to Friday den after that Friday will straight away after OBS go SJC for NPCC unit camp for Friday and sat morning den in the morning will go NPAP training den after tat at nite or afternoon den will reach home for er jie bdae celebration of 21st years old…

So wun be blogging till sch reopen on 7th April 08 ba…..,

2008-02-20T21:43:00.000+08:00

hey guys and gals, i wun be blogging for some time till my laptop is back from acer.... take care and keep in touch...

2008-02-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

Woke up when mum went out start to pack and slack a bit... went through all the disc i have and found one that is Thailand trip with SJC photos... was rather slock la... cause i tot i got none of those...haha pretty cool la...haha
After that no more slacking... bad to pack the room... nv wash up since morning so it mean no eating at the same time...haha nv eat till the nite dinner...
Finally finish clearing and doing all the necessary... all i left is a box of NPCC stuff to sort and that all... dame happy... after that vacuum the floor... found out that its been quite a while since i vacuum the whole hse....was clean and nice after tat...
After washing up and bathing went to help mum with all the food stuff as today we are eating steamboat with our neighbour and da jie BF... er jie BF too busy so nv come...
Eating with so many ppl is rather fun as we jokes around and so on... jordern was so cute to give the 3 of us(sisters) a letter... haha mine was wish me find BF and get marry asap...haha so funny la...den i treat him as my new found bf but he dun wan...haha
Have majong session after that... was rather tired so we all play for a while only den after that when to slp le... today finally slp at own bed le... er jie happy happy...haha

2008-02-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today was packing my room for the whole day found so much and throw so much... was rather happi because finally saw things clear and put away le...haha good job.... but parents are still nagging... more packing tml i guess...
Oh ya nv go down to AMK for training because got not enough time to go le so skip this week training ba....

2008-02-04T11:40:00.001+08:00

Ok today gg to stay at home and pack.... at this time still haven start was blogging all the way... ops.... better start le... if not mum will scold...have to finish packing in this few days if not new year is coming... oh ya... yest was talking to darling fang abt sakae buffet.... looking very very forward to it...haha darlings I miss all of you... hope you all are doing well and good luck for exam... TCTC
Oh ya tonight got TKD dun noe should go down anot as I wan to train but I lazy den I got lots of things to pack and do also...haiz.... anw that was just a dream of mind...so no more awaiting or hope for it...