Have left with 1 hour before the promise sleep time…
It’s been long since I last blog but time is just running and I can’t afford to stop and put down my thoughts here. Tonight I decided to change the look of my blog again and type 1 post because this is something that I wanted to complete.
There seems to have lots of ups and downs at this period of time but I feel so different even thou I feel tired but still after all it is something that I will be willing to do it. I guess I’ve change, I wonder if it’s better but I know that I’m still in the process of adapting to the changes make.
Why is decision forever so difficult to be made? Why am I always so indecisive, especially in the important things that affect not only me? Something I really hate the ‘me’ that screw everything up when I can actually make it better. But that’s not the point so I guess I should not say so much about it.
Last 2 weekend before I’m flying off to US for 3 weeks on 6th Nov 2010. Time is really running out but I guess when I come back from US I will still be able to do it. I pray hard that things will not change that much after the 3 week especially everybody safety.
Tomorrow I’ll be seeing Perly in the morning, hopeful the whole process won’t take too long so I have time to prepare whatever I need for this wonderful weekend that I going to spend with my dear. Planning a couple trip and going on a special event (night safari – Halloween), the night will be great and I believe is not the hours together that counts.
I know I’ve hurt you really a lot for the past few weeks and I really want to apologize for saying words that I never think before saying out during an unhappy moment. You had been so good to me that I really don’t know what I can do to repaid you (I know this is not something that should be repaid but still I feel so love till I’m guilty). It’s going 4 month for us and I hope this past month had been fruitful for both of us to understanding the shortcomings and the characteristics of each other. Thanks for enduring the willful, nasty and stubborn side of me. I look forward for a wonderful 30th to 31st and till than I wish we will be lovely just the way we are : )